After every expensive test under the sun, I have a diagnosis: "thunderclap headaches"

There are two kinds, those that happen right before you die because of bleeding on the brain, and those that are spaced out over long periods due to a neurological condition or latent symptom of a brain injury.

Back in college I experienced a week of headaches that swept on so quickly I passed out from pain where I stood. I had an MRI, EEG, sleep study... all sorts of tests, to no end. Same this time, with all diagnostic meds for migraines given as well. As the exact 1-5 minute onset of level 9-10 pain that petered of after a week or two happened both times, several years apart, and no headaches happen of any severity ever... that along with perfect tests and X-ray confirmation of at least four skulls fractures from childhood, and multiple grey areas of dead tissue from brain trauma confirm the diagnosis.

There is no treatment, there are drugs to mildly mitigate pain. All of those meds are anti-inflammatory in nature, and as an anemic stand the small risk of making me bleed out. So, I have a confirmed diagnosis that I lived with multiple skull fractures as a child yet CPS returned me to my parents. My mother's severe abuse has caused latent neurological issues, and those issues can sweep on at any time for the remainder of my life, faster than I can pull over a car. I will have to spend up to two weeks wracked with pain, unable to minimize it, screaming and seeing stars and existing in a ball of agony, as just took place this past week and a half, and before in college. This my the reality for the rest of my life: untreatable agony without any warning whatsoever, coming on within seconds and stealing weeks away from me, all caused by heavy child abuse.

Fuck you, Kimberly Ann Sawyer, and the wildly abetting Erik James Sawyer. I still hold out hope that your children are taken away for their safety, and I look forward to dancing on your graves. I say this without irony, but with absolute seriousness, as I will hold a party the day each of you passes on to hell.

Anyone who wants to chastise or wax theological over the last part, stow it. Anyone who wants information, here is the Mayo Clinic link: http://www.mayoclinic.org/…/…/basics/definition/con-20025335