Okay I've been nervous to talk about this but I need to.

I've slipped in terms of my student loans, it didn't auto charge me for a few months and I thought that meant I was done without checking, but then I got a letter saying I owed 1800+ immediately and that I still have 10,000 left to go.

I've been stressed and I've kinda... receeded into myself for the last 2 weeks esp with how awful this week has been for everyone.

I need help to a degree I haven't before. But I also owe too many comms to take on more except for friends and past commissioners who I know can be patient.

Its bearing down on me to a degree where I'm kinda just unable to think or function in a way that would be helpful for my work. I need help, or i should just consider getting a second job that isn't this.

I'm not able to do what is needed of me with this constant brainfog and stress, I'm sorry. I just don't know how to picture things when my mind is like this, and I need to be able to picture stuff mentally to draw it.

If you'd like to help please consider giving me a kofi ko-fi.com/mrease

Or if you don't mind waiting like... quite a long time, like almost a year or something feel free to contact me for a comm, but keep in mind theres a LOT I have to get through before I can get to yours if you get one.

I might start streaming to FORCE myself to focus on my work or to monetize my hobbies, I've seen it work for some folks.

Also I'm returning to the Ammy growth drive sequence, I've finally drawn up something for the next part that has me pretty satisfied, but I got stuck on it for a while... getting stuck on things seems to be my MO at this point.

Sorry to everyone who's believed in me, but like everyone I don't... really know what I'm doing, I'm just making it up as I go along. Thats adulthood I guess.