First off I will make exclusive photos for this site being Neko Oriented if you'd like to see my regular photos just check out my Facebook or myspace or whatever ^^ Now forr the mini bio

Hello =] my name is Memory Rayneshades. I was born on December 7th . I decided I should write a slight bio on who I am since I don't tend to talk to a lot of people. >.< Not that there is anything wrong with anyone. It's just that I am usually busy and I know so many people. I have had my share of happiness as well as losses. This will be my story. As a baby my parents did drugs and couldn't take care of me.. to be totally honest I shouldn't be alive due to how bad the drugs were my mother did. But I'm here. My grandma was at the hospital when I was born and she tells me to this day. That when she picked me up. She felt this surge of love that she hadn't felt since her last husband committed suicide. Because my parents couldn't (or maybe even didn't want me) she wanted to take me in. My mother was very against it. I almost went into foster care.. But after a lot of money and convincing she signed me over to my grandma..It turned out life was not gonna be easy for me. My dad got married to this lady who has become one of the meanest women I have ever met in my life.. I can't talk about who the person is because I still need to respect the privacy of others. So continuing the story. Some of the reasons this women is so evil. Is she would always lie to me treat me poorly make me do things I didn't want to and well she even hurt me physically >.<..I believe in karma and now she is getting hers..She is currently dying of cancer..(thankfully her and her side of the family have not been family for years =] ) Anyway I was diagnosed with ADHD at an early age and I ended up having extreme trouble making friends. (I have learned to overcome it) no one liked me I did however make one friend who helped me out through out elementary middle and the first year of high school and it turned out he never was my friend and was only using me..All through elementary school I had trouble learning to read and do math.. Kids made fun of me and I got bullied all the time. I was strange to the other kids and therefor no one wanted to be friends with me. There were probably about a total of 100 kids who harassed me bullied me physically and emotionally hurt me through out school. Some kids commit suicide I decided to suffer quietly with depression. No child should ever have to endure the sadness and pain of bullying. I dealt with bullying till I was almost out of High school. I just kept pushing on. Never giving up. I started to really question who I was in High school. having no friends and began to feel lonely and loveless I wondered about my sexuality. I had never thought about it. But eventually I wondered about boys and it just kinda hit me. That I was gay. I decided to completely recreate my image to what I liked and what I wanted..with many different designs hairstyles clothes make up everything.. I am finally starting to get to that point in my life where it works for me.. I completely Understand that it doesn't work for everyone but it did for me...I eventually thought I had found love through the internet but the boy was never able to be around and even though he will always hold my heart weather he comes back or not I have to carry on with life.. because.. well Life won't wait for you..people come and go through out your entire life..one of the worst relationships I had ever been in with was with this younger guy.. he was very dark and it turned out he liked to play with minds and hearts of people and unfortunately I got played v_v I started to trust people a lot less after it turned out he had been lying to me and using me..But I know in my heart that not all people are bad just some..there had been many times I thought I'd found love to realize it had been a lie..or lust..these days I am studying to be a singer songwriter =] It's my dream to try and connect to people and show them that there are other ways to deal with emotions and so many different things I could totally go into deeper detail about my life but most people don't read this..so if you did =] thank you it means a lot ^^ I enjoy doing photo stuff, hairstyling and make up on top of my singing so I hope you enjoyed reading this incite into my life =] and stuff ^^ so yea Byeee ♥