Sorry for the 6mth absence without explanation, for those of you who don't follow my main account i'll explain why I disappeared for quite a long period of time.

I have struggled with gender identity for years. Growing up female was not what I wanted nor expected. Hell when puberty kicked in I cried when my parents told me things would change that I didn't want to. And honestly it took me 19yrs to figure it all out but now i'm on the way to being happy with myself.

But beforehand I struggled through serious depression, anxiety and paranoia. I shoved myself in the female gender box and loathed every second but relished in the fact that people (especially my parents) would compliment me for it, the only time I got positive feedback from them despite being a straight A student and clean teenager. Though I couldn't help but wish I was a guy, not knowing there was a way to do that.

Though once I moved to New Zealand that changed. I struggled again, I discovered new things, I discovered I could infact change the process of puberty and become male through surgery and hormones. Though this ruined the relationship I had with my ex-partner, I am very glad to say my current girlfriend who met me while I was still female is with me every step of the way and was the one who helped me discover that I could change myself to become happy with who I am.

I'm slowly transitioning and while i'm still pre-T and pre-chest op i'm pretty happy. Though the reason for my absence was because I was almost 100% certain that I did not want to be Poppy Pandacoon anymore, though after several months struggling with the decision and even finding a buyer for the character and suit -- I couldn't go through with it. So i've come back, redesigned the character, will be refurbishing the suit myself and trying again.



Thankyou all for your patience and I hope to share even more shenanigans with you all!