Long story short, I've basically withdrawn from social media, slowed to a crawl on art and got addicted to video games while I'm working my full-time job. I'm constantly exhausted on a mental, physical and emotional level regarding my finances, my family and my addiction. I'll keep it brief of what I've been dealing with though it is more of the same of my last journal.

My initial plan to sell with a realtor company has failed after half a year of marketing with and dealing with a house flood. However after discussing with a law firm interested in buying my property, I am currently waiting for them to open with their chosen escrow agent. In the meantime I've still been paying my mortgage and HOA fees for a vacant home on top of rent to a close friend which has been a financial burden that my job is barely paying. I'm praying escrow opens very soon!

My foolish father has become too ill to have surgery for his lung cancer, and he is currently surviving with my foreign half-brother who was forced to migrate back to the USA with my dad's citizenship (it's complicated). Once he passes, I am likely going to discuss with my family on our plans for my half brother. I haven't decided if I want to help teach him life skills or if I want to help him obtain citizenship in his childhood country, but I'll cross that bridge when I get there.

I'm back on my BS escaping into video games again. I've relapsed on Destiny 2 which is not helping my case of FOMO to grind for cosmetic items. Even if I am not playing an MMO, I've been playing a lot of retro and modern single player games. I've said multiple times that I really cannot justify the severity of my procrastination habits. That doesn't mean I've lost interest in art, but work has been chaotic with mismanagement and quitting employees. I'm hoping that I reduce my exposure to video games when my stress levels start lowering as one life problem gets tackled at a time.

I'm not seeking help nor am I expecting your patience. I am asking for your understanding, and I want to let you all know that I intend to return to making smutty artworks when I resolve all of my life problems. I want to reestablish weakened bonds with my fellow pals, creators and commissioners upon my return. Heck, maybe I will finally pursue my dream to become a game writer and designer afterwards. Please just wait a little longer as I endure the most difficult year of my life.

Thank you for reading, and I promise to return with content hopefully soon.

-Risque