Went in for Surgery yesterday morning. I was supposed to be out by the afternoon and home… there was some complications and they kept me overnight. Been dosing me with fentanyl and morphine, but not enough to actually do anything for the pain. 2mg for someone my size and weight does nothing but make my hand itch.
Now I have a fever.
I’ve not slept
They came in and finally got me one TINY dose of oxy to see if that would help and let me sleep…finally around 3-4AM I was able to fall asleep till the tech came in at 5 something, said “knock knock as she turned on the brightest light in the world… like.. really?! How about you ACTUALLY knock and that can wake me without being jarred awake by you shouting knock knock and blasting out my eyes with the sun?
Takes my temp,asks me how I am.. I tell her I’m exhausted and in pain and she goes. “Ok, get some sleep”
Then walks out, leaving the light on and the fucking door open.

After almost 45 mins another nurse comes in after I hit the call button and let her know. She says she’s bringing me something for the pain and that they shouldn’t have woke me up like that.

I ask if I need to eat anything with the pain medicine because that was why they were not giving me anything stronger yesterday, so she said “someone will be in to take your breakfast order” about 30+ mins later, someone comes in with a tray of food. That I didn’t order.
And it’s a bunch of stuff I can’t eat.

Black coffe, toast with straberrry jelly, French toast… and sausage.
I can’t drink coffe, I hate strawberry jelly and I need to have low sodium, high potassium food right now. And French toast almost ALWAYS has fucking cinnamon on it… which I’m allergic to.
I can’t wait to get the fuck out of here so I can go home where people actually give a shit about me.


Oh and the REALLY great part that has been making me feel some kinda way: my family didn’t call, text or anything to see how I am or check on me…. But the one guy I work for did.
But you know… “we love you and miss you every day”
Sure… just not enough to ACTUALLY prove that with actions.
Fucking assholes.