Okay so I know I kinda have been going off and on and changing how/who I am doing art for lately but I think I need to update everyone on the current situation. ^^;

So ppl who know me I have done commissions, YCH, ect. in the past and even done some free art for ppl.

Now days I dont do commissions or any of that because I wish to do everything I can to draw for friends and some others JUST to make them happy, thus why Ive been doing things for some ppl for free lately as well as because I feel I need a bit of freedom to draw to experiment with my style ^^;

BUT HERE IS THE CURRENT ISSUE:

Though I had a few other art pieces planned for some ppl I am gonna have to cancel those... EXCEPT ONE. There is one Ive been working on for Maverick Skye and it is almost done. The problem is (though I cant exactly go completely into details because I dont even know why myself 100%) my anxiety issue that for many reasons is linked to drawing for others has gotten so bad I can barely draw even taking pills.... I keep pushing myself to because honestly I love so much to give and create art for others to make ppl happy... And I wanted ppl to see it wasnt about the money to me even though Im jobless and broke... Only reason Ive been able to survive is because Raiken and Jess supporting me which I do not think I deserve because I dont feel Ive ever done enough to deserve it... ;n; As well I dont want to seem dependent!

Problem is my anxiety even goes beyond art but it conflicts most drawing for others... And I wish it didnt because I love giving to others.... I feel like I have to only draw for myself to do anything these days. I hope ppl understand...

WHAT CAN I DO?:

Though, because past events caused me to change overtime I can say what I can do... Though in my current state I CANNOT draw for other ppl (other than this one last pic) I may do a few every so often if I fully feel like my mind and body can handle it and has the will for it... If anything, I may do YCH again because that feels like it will be with an idea I have fully made myself and I can deliver on that! I mean, any commission, or anything I have always been sure to make that a priority and always have delivered before unless the commissioner put me under extreme stress I have returned their money. But that has only happened twice ever ^^; Anyway.

Sorry everyone and I hope you all understand to an extent and are not upset with me ;w; </3

I realllllly reaaaaaally reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaalllllllllly just want to show love and kindness but I must not keep pushing myself and make myself miserable like that any longer s; I must think about myself for once ;~;

So anyway, Love you all and hope to do what I can for everyone <3 ^w^