When I met my husband a decade ago, I also met his cream shiba inu, Aura Spark. They have both been in my life ever since and I love them both dearly. She is now somewhere around 15-17ish years old, well beyond the average life expectancy of her breed, though that doesn't make this any easier to go through.

I've not had much death in my life, even with pets, so I'm not really sure how to even start to process it. Her health took a very sudden nose dive- we suspect she had a stroke. She was born with a birth defect that caused her to have seizures her whole life, though through trial and error we figured out how to mitigate and reduce them as much as possible to where she was only having one every 6 or so months and much less severe. But in the last couple months she was starting to go blind and deaf, and being slower to move around, so we knew that this was coming to some extent, and within the last couple of days, her ability to even stand on her own plummeted fast. She is far too old for surgery or anything of that nature, and the thought of her having even just a small seizure in that state would be way too hard on her, so we made the decision to let her go so she would not have to be in pain anymore.

I am going to miss her so much. I took her on daily walks, sat with and gave her muscle massages whenever she experienced seizures, played with her and showered her with love in every way I knew how. We gave her the best life that we could and I am thankful for every day I got to spend with her and how much time that we had. As anyone else who has gone through this surely agrees, it is just never enough time. I am also worried about her best buddy, my cat Jasper. They've been besties for Jasper's whole life and he is about 5 now. Luckily we have a second cat so he won't be alone, but I still think he is going to struggle for a while since he won't be there to understand what happened.

The cost for euthanasia and cremation came out to $210. Thankfully I'm able to cover it for now, but I will be short for other things in the next couple weeks for bills and groceries, so I'll likely be opening emergency commissions to make up for it. If interested, please comment or DM for more information.

If anyone wants to help, feel free to do so at my kofi or cashapp, though don't feel obligated.
Kofi: https://ko-fi.com/mllllonsknlves
Cashapp: $lofivoid

I also just want to say that commission work might be slightly delayed while I allow myself some time to grieve. I hope everyone understands. Hopefully it won't delay for long, but I will keep everyone updated in the coming days.