Its been some time since my severe mental break. In that time I have made some tremendous progress in my mental health. Unfortunately, I have made equally disturbing steps backward in my physical health.

I was recently diagnosed with Multiple Primary Malignancy Cancer in my right kidney, gallbladder, unattached cancer to the pancreatic sack, furthest right lobe of my liver, throat, stomach, and upper GI.

I say recently but it has been quite a bit of time realistically.

I have been on immunotherapy and I am trying to fight things the best I can. I am overwhelmed at the amount of near death experiences and other various health problems that have happened in the passed few years. I -am- trying, though at times I have at times considered throwing in the towel.

I have wronged a great many people in my life & I have done my best to correct those wrongs. I have distanced myself a great deal from the fandom in general due to the obscene amounts of back stabbing, blackmailing others for their own benefit or just to get their way, or even to prove a point. The sheer amount of lying about each other, rumor mongering, etc.

The sociopolitical environment from what I can tell has torn the fandom to shreds & barely exists as it was 5 years ago. I however, see some glimmers of light.

Some return of sanity as groups of members of the fandom have formed to lift each other up, instead of tearing each other down. A return of tolerance & understanding. Of that, I am thankful.

I wish I had better news to share, unfortunately I do not.

I have moved from where my prior living situation was and I am a home owner again. I bought myself a motorcycle. I am working, so that's a bonus, I have not been to a con in quite a bit of time, which sucks.

My hope is once all this Covid crap is over and taken care of, that i can get back to comedy and conventions!

I wish you all happy and safe meetings.

Take care & be safe.
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