I wish I was more creative
I wish I had less expectations placed in me
I wish I could just relax when not online
I wish I could apply myself onto more tasks even if I don't enjoy the task
I wish my memory didn't fail me for specific things everyone but myself expects me to remember irl
I wish I could slow down without heavy anxiety, without a rushing heart, racing thoughts, uneasiness, nausea, etc
I wish I didn't have to cope with it by disassociating so often
I wish I could cry
I wish I could express my emotions
I wish my emotions didn't feel so numb constantly
I wish I wasn't expected to keep my irrational emotions hidden
I wish I could express without consequence
I wish I could leave this world
And yet I wish I could stay connected with this world
I wish that I could flee to a fantasy
I wish that reality was a fantasy
I wish that the two could coexist
I wish that the two could become one
I wish to become something unachievable
Unaccessible
Without flaw
Without fail
Without expectations
Without frequent fear and anxiety...
I wish......
I wish.........
I wish.