It's been a while since I've done anything really active on here, and there are a few reasons.
1) I'm forgetful
2) Life has been... Well, life.
3) Lack of motivation?

So, let's start at the begining-ish. Back in June, I had an anxiety attack for no reason. Calm day at work, nothing happening, then BAM! Panic attack. So.. I am taking anti-anxiety/antidepressants. I'm also seeing a therapist for LOTS of therapy.

1) Anxiety therapy. Because when I have an anxiety attack, it is a problem, given that my emotions are pretty flat. So the goal is to find causes for anxiety, I suppose, and perhaps correct/overcome it?

2) Emotional therapy - In short, I have not cried in eighteen years. No violent outbursts, or sudden surges of anger... My therapist has said that it is a LOT of suppressed emotion. So much so that the cracks that most people usually show are ALSO suppressed, so it's basically as though I emote and give the desired emotional response, but I'm not really FEELING it.

3) ADHD assessment - Had that this past Wednesday. As it says; I was tested to see if I am ADHD, cause it is hard to focus and really sit still. Always moving my feet, and doing something to keep myself occupied. Mentally, imagine scrolling through a radio. A bit of channel A, a bit of channel B, some static, maybe a dash of music somewhere... That's basically what my head is like. Thoughts are there, then gone before I can get the whole thing.

4) Another testing to figure out if my memory loss (can't really remember anything from 13 years of age and earlier) is a result or repressed memories, or if it is a result of a concussion I had when I was thirteen that gave me a concussion.

5) Personality assessment - Why? Because I was in a mental institution for a week when I was 17, and while I did nothing wrong, they (at the time) said I was antisocial, so my therapist decided to take a deeper look to figure out if they meant to say that I am not social, or if I have Antisocial personality disorder (?).

So, yeah. Lots of fun, I like my therapist, I am not the biggest fan of the pills because of the side effects, but they work, I think. I can say they've made me lose weight. 12lbs since I started taking them, but that's also because I've not been eating well. Loss of appetite, so...
Anyway; that sums up the bulk of this summer. Work, therapy, pills. How's your summer treating you?