WARNING: THIS IS HEAVILY DISTORTED HARSH NOISE. DO NOT LISTEN AT FULL VOLUME.
ALSO, THE DESCRIPTION IS FULL OF TRIGGER WARNING KINDA STUFF TOO SO BE CAREFUL ABOUT THAT IF YOU'RE A SENSITIVE PERSON

I've been meaning to do a noise piece for a while now...

I seem to create noise when my life is at a low. Thoughts of suicide have been passing through my mind, and my sensitive shell has been breaking a lot easier. I've beat the living shit out of my face twice now. I still hurt when I squeeze my eyes hard.

Noise is like a vent through which so many emotions can come through. The ease of automatism allows me to just sort of create, then step back and realize what my subconscious mind has been fuming about.

This piece represents how critical I am of myself. The demonic voice is my inner critic, telling me all the things that is wrong with myself. It begins talking about the subject in third person, believing that the person is not my own, like a ghost has taken control of me. The voice begins talking in first person about itself, myself, representing how I am the one who is criticizing Myself.

The last vocal track, which is an exasperated repetition of "I am sick", represents my knowledge of my illness. I am anxious. The noise and distortion is representative of that. As the music fades, it leaves me saying alone, "I am sick! I am sick!" This represents my knowledge and acceptance of the sickness as a legitimate and serious illness.








i am sick...