I understand this. This was me after leaving my abusive husband pregnant and with a newborn. I went into panic attacks if I was cornered, couldn't be touched for adult fun etc etc. My mom actually pushed me to try to date after several years. My now husband. Together 5yrs married one left a verbal abusive relationship himself and saw something in me. So with intense patience, knowing that we may never move out of my parents place as not only my physical disabilities going up and down but getting diagnosed with narcolepsy after having the swine flu. I said he could leave as we were only engaged and he asked why. I know how hard it is right now, and not wanting to trust and in some ways not able to. If you want to vent please let me know, I may take a moment but I will answer *hugs*

I can dig.

Is exactly me, been through a lot of bad relationships, my family was heavily abusive towards me and treated me like a slave all my life and had a lot of friends who turned out to be fake. When I moved to Texas for a bit, I lived with my ex, who, eventually, let a couple of his friends move in as well, his friends were... god awful people and one tormented and harassed me for 2 years while my ex's mum also tormented and harassed me, I was eventually kicked out (unfairly) and moved back into my family's place, which didn't last long because I eventually escaped from them again a year later, ever since then I've been dating my mate for 3 years and I still worry his genuine love and affection is just a lie, he always reassures me that he does, 100%, love me and care about me. I care so much about him but I worry I'll lose him at any time.

U as well?? My apologies.

Wonderful work, btw.

God that's a mood

Here, have a metal-plated genuine love and affection! Can't break it! =D

That's definitely my mood alright.

Literally me.