you'll still be here, but sorry things didnt turned out the way you hoped, the way you dreamed;
some things will get better, you won't be dealin' with what you are then forever, but sorry to say that makin' it further than you thought comes with its own sets of struggles and pains;
you're still tryin' to live for the joys of life, but sorry to say its not what you wished for if you made it past every tomorrow back then;
i'm sorry, kid, that i couldn't be everythin' you hoped for back then.
i'm still here, i'm still kickin', but it's still a struggle, keepin' on livin'.

(not sure that anyone will be seein this anyway but putting this in scraps & not filing it in a folder since its a personal vent piece - i like how it/the lines turned out enough to post, but not enough to have it as a non-scrap submission, esp since its not really polished or coloured or anything, as i did it while taking a small break from commission work to get out some feelings i've been dealing with due to personal life stuff. didnt want to dedicate too much time/effort to it since it was just drawn as a little break;
and i'm roughly okay. not a danger to myself, and i'll keep still be here keeping on; i'm just having more bad days than good in every sense; outside of a good thing happening here and there including one good thing that happened today out of an otherwise bad day - apart from those, existing can be rough lately. i'm very tired, but i'll keep on keepin' on, i just needed to channel the feelings into something for a bit to cope. now, i'm off to bed.)