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Why I haven't been posting and why I've deleted something...
16 years ago
I deleted a pic not too long ago that had a good number of favs and such with it. In case anyone was wondering, this is why.
My boyfriend of four and a half years broke up with me in July of this year. It was completely unexpected, out of the blue, and I couldn't understand it. I talked him him to try to understand it, or at least maintain a friendship, he continued to push me away, and I fell into a spiraling depression. I called/texted my best friend and talked to her constantly over this time.
I got an amazing job over the summer that has taught me how to be a calm assertive pack leader. Its been a life changing experience in how I see myself and how I deal with people as well as dogs. I lost 21 pounds due to the depression and working, which is good (I'm at 135 now instead of 156). I got a lot better at dealing with being single and trying to get over my ex. I was getting to a balanced place in my life by talking to my best friends.
One September evening, he tried to contact me. A few minutes later, my best friend of over a decade (the one I talked to constantly about how I wans't over the breakup) called me. She said they had hooked up. They wanted to "let me know" by calling me, but were very upset/angry with me when I wouldn't "accept their love".
Least to say it fucked me up emotionally. I lost more weight, but have since then come back up to 135ish. I fell behind on school and still have yet to get back up to speed. My grades are suffering a little this semester due to this, yet I've told none of my teachers why. I COMPLETELY purged all of my friends who sided with my ex and ex-best friend and any of my friends who think that it's okay to hook up with your best friend's ex. I've deleted their contacts, gotten rid of a lot of photos of them, and I'm slowly getting rid of all the gifts, letters, and artwork that they made for me.
The submission that I deleted was of my ex. I couldn't look at it anymore without losing it. Simple as that.
Through this whole experience, I haven't felt like drawing, period. The times I do draw, I'm so out of practice that it's utterly crappy. Nothing of the last few months is anything to show the public. I'm in a painting class this semester, so I am painting frequently. I've been making a lot of glass beads, jewelery, and I've gotten back into crochet work. One of these days, I'll post some of this stuff.
I'm going to be fine, I know this, so spare me those comments. I just feel like I have to explain myself here.
My boyfriend of four and a half years broke up with me in July of this year. It was completely unexpected, out of the blue, and I couldn't understand it. I talked him him to try to understand it, or at least maintain a friendship, he continued to push me away, and I fell into a spiraling depression. I called/texted my best friend and talked to her constantly over this time.
I got an amazing job over the summer that has taught me how to be a calm assertive pack leader. Its been a life changing experience in how I see myself and how I deal with people as well as dogs. I lost 21 pounds due to the depression and working, which is good (I'm at 135 now instead of 156). I got a lot better at dealing with being single and trying to get over my ex. I was getting to a balanced place in my life by talking to my best friends.
One September evening, he tried to contact me. A few minutes later, my best friend of over a decade (the one I talked to constantly about how I wans't over the breakup) called me. She said they had hooked up. They wanted to "let me know" by calling me, but were very upset/angry with me when I wouldn't "accept their love".
Least to say it fucked me up emotionally. I lost more weight, but have since then come back up to 135ish. I fell behind on school and still have yet to get back up to speed. My grades are suffering a little this semester due to this, yet I've told none of my teachers why. I COMPLETELY purged all of my friends who sided with my ex and ex-best friend and any of my friends who think that it's okay to hook up with your best friend's ex. I've deleted their contacts, gotten rid of a lot of photos of them, and I'm slowly getting rid of all the gifts, letters, and artwork that they made for me.
The submission that I deleted was of my ex. I couldn't look at it anymore without losing it. Simple as that.
Through this whole experience, I haven't felt like drawing, period. The times I do draw, I'm so out of practice that it's utterly crappy. Nothing of the last few months is anything to show the public. I'm in a painting class this semester, so I am painting frequently. I've been making a lot of glass beads, jewelery, and I've gotten back into crochet work. One of these days, I'll post some of this stuff.
I'm going to be fine, I know this, so spare me those comments. I just feel like I have to explain myself here.
I think you fit the bill. :)
Well my dear, Aviva. Care to run away with me in a stolen car?
Just as long as we can blast ear splitting music and I can stick my head out the window. Lets do it, man.