I think that's what depression actually is, the lack of emotion when there really should be something. That's why it's incredibly good at sucking away motivation to just...Live.

Sorry you're going through that.

Yeah... Depression does that to all of us. I hope things do lighten up for you Melon. Maybe you need to relax and take a break

'I think the hardest part about all of this is that, despite all of this stuff going through my head, I haven't been able to cry. At all.
That always seems to be what fixes everything, a good, long, nothing-held-back cry. And I just can't do it, no matter what I do.
For me, depression isn't feeling constantly sad, it's constantly feeling a lack of emotion. It feels like there's a hole in my chest that I can't fill. Just this empty void of emotionless... Nothing.
I desperately just want to feel something. Anything. Something beyond passive things.'

You just described EVERYTHING I've been going through with MY depression at times, and it is a horrible feeling, that hole in your chest :( I don't know why I haven't been able to cry myself, but I agree we all need moments like that.

It’s good to vent your about your feelings from time to time. Holding them in will only make you feel worse in the end. There is no need to apologize for seeming like a downer, everyone goes through hard times in our lives. I hope that you will find the strength to make it through these difficult times in your life. I’m sorry about the situation.

I can not tell you how often i find myself feeling this way. Alot of the times, a nice nap helps rid that feeling for me. Idk if i can say the same for others.