Coming Out?
15 years ago
Well... National Coming Out Day started just over two hours ago where I'm at, and I've been sitting here, trying to decide whether or not to say something about it on facebook.
Some over my family is very religious, and some of my family is very conservative, and some members of both of these parts of my family read my facebook. I want to say something, but... I don't know if I can tell my family about my sexuality. I'm not even a term they'd understand, since I identify as pansexual (I like guys, girls, and everything in between). To top it off, I'm polyamorous, too, something I DEFINITELY don't want to talk to them about. I've been in a happy, healthy, loving poly relationship for over a year now with two WONDERFUL guys, and I can't even tell my family so that they can share my joy, because I don't know how they'll take it. I don't know why I'm so nonchalant about my sexuality until it comes to discussing it with my family, but it sucks.
I don't want to have to explain to them, I don't want to have to bear any possible ridicule from them, because I happily live my life without being judged for my sexuality right now. It's ironic... I'm more likely to tell a stranger, or a coworker, about my sexuality, but... I can't gather the nerve to tell my family, the people I share blood with, the people who have known me my entire life. I don't know how to tell them.
Augh. :/
EDIT: I posted a neutral but supportive message via The Human Rights Campaign, at http://www.facebook.com/comingoutday
Some over my family is very religious, and some of my family is very conservative, and some members of both of these parts of my family read my facebook. I want to say something, but... I don't know if I can tell my family about my sexuality. I'm not even a term they'd understand, since I identify as pansexual (I like guys, girls, and everything in between). To top it off, I'm polyamorous, too, something I DEFINITELY don't want to talk to them about. I've been in a happy, healthy, loving poly relationship for over a year now with two WONDERFUL guys, and I can't even tell my family so that they can share my joy, because I don't know how they'll take it. I don't know why I'm so nonchalant about my sexuality until it comes to discussing it with my family, but it sucks.
I don't want to have to explain to them, I don't want to have to bear any possible ridicule from them, because I happily live my life without being judged for my sexuality right now. It's ironic... I'm more likely to tell a stranger, or a coworker, about my sexuality, but... I can't gather the nerve to tell my family, the people I share blood with, the people who have known me my entire life. I don't know how to tell them.
Augh. :/
EDIT: I posted a neutral but supportive message via The Human Rights Campaign, at http://www.facebook.com/comingoutday
This is one of those things where everybody will be happier if this stays as a skeleton in your closet, so to speak. These things happen in life.
I do hope that your relationship with those two continues to go well, and that you all remain happy and healthy for years to come. :)