Its been a month since the last entry. I have been wondering partially what to put to an extent, and worrying to another. But my mind has been all over since last entry.

The box still hasnt got to my girlfriend. It worrys me there to no end still. It will eventually arrive I hope, but I also wonder if it already has and is being secreted. That wouldnt shock me in the slightest if it was.

I am worried sick about her, cause we havent spoke properly, voice to voice, since before the box was sent. Thats like 6 weeks without hearing her voice, which comforts me when I hear it. Which makes me strong enough to not cry, which, and I havent told her, I have cried almost every day begging to hear her voice and hold her.

I love her. Its a weird thing to say, about a girl I have never even physically held, but I do. I hope she knows how much as well.

I think if I heard her voice the first thing I would do is cry really.

The other things on my mind are related to where I live though. I have had rumblings of one of 2 big things, but both are scary...

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