I'm feeling so trapped mentally, it is getting to the point where i am either super Depressed or mad.. now it's like I'm losing motivation, slowly feeling numb to where i don't want to do the video projects i need to do.. and since it's the holiday season i'm feeling more of this mixture of depression,anger,anxiety, stress. Because of not getting far in my goals of doing video / projects or even getting further with school..

it is just murder to my mind that i want to make content and my mind and confidence says otherwise, i end up feeling scared and i don't know what to do. i really want to start to do more but i need to fight this depression and everything else that is hitting.

I do apologize about this vent, i know i need to get stuff off of my chest but this is been here for a while now.