I was 12 when I first created Jerry. I'm now 30.

When I was younger I used to find people I was interested in online and I would copy their traits in an identity in attempt to befriend them. This is where Jerry came from, although I still feel he did and still does represent me as well, especially after I fleshed out his personality a bit.

When I was 16-17 I started developing serious depression and mental health issues. I escaped into Jerry's world as a coping mechanism and in secret wrote some pretty dark stories involving him. But as I was sucked into depression I started also associating that side of me with it as well. I didn't want to be "me". This relates to more than just my characters but it explains why I started to feel distant from him. In 2013 I kinda hastily remade myself as Ollie ( Ollie-Ottsenfree) but still felt unsettled as Ollie was a much different character and still tied to my depression issues, so I didn't stay as him for very long and moved to Matt ( MattCatt) which also coincided with me turning 18 and trying to build the identity I wanted. It was also when I first discovered the concept of plurality. I still am plural but I choose to express a singular identity here and other places.

Through the plural community I started experimenting with my outward gender identity and realized that I'm more nonbinary rather than just transmasc like I had previously thought. So I decided to remake my fursona again to reflect that, resulting in Aiden and where I am now. But I also started to feel distant from the community since a lot of people had left, and also resented parts of it for their behavior towards certain topics. I convinced myself that no one here would want or accept me so I stopped posting much and stopped drawing altogether for months at a time. This basically describes the past 7-8 years since I was last active.

There's more to it but I guess I just felt the need to get this out. I don't know if anyone will even read this or care. But recently I've wanted to draw and create again, and I want to try and tackle the issues I've been neglecting. I just still worry that people won't like me as I really am, but I also don't really care as much about that.

I am Aiden, and Jerry, and Matt, and every other name I've ever used. It's all part of me and my experience, and I want to express that now.

It's been a while, huh? I've mostly been lurking the community for quite a while but I've decided to be more active again. I don't even know if anyone is still interested in my stuff but I've felt like drawing again. I kinda fell into an art slump for several years and it became hard to draw even a little. A lot of that was due to feeling disconnected from myself and the community, knowing a lot of the people I knew are gone or moved on. It's not like I had a huge following anyway but I still miss people.

I really don't know what else to say here. I do hope to post more art and maybe take some commissions at some point. I don't really have a good idea for prices and such but if anyone is interested feel free to message me and we'll work something out. I'll probably make a better post for that later but for now I'm still testing the waters.

I guess that's all. Hope everyone who reads this is doing well.

So I don't really post much here anymore. Honestly I didn't do much art in 2021, and I tend to just lurk and fav things here, so being active didn't seem necessary. This year, though, I'd like to at least make an effort to reconnect with the community here and on Twitter. I especially want to get back into art again and drawing my characters, maybe even taking some trades (not 100% sure but feel free to comment if you want one, although will probably only take like 1 at a time).

I don't have much else to say, but I wanted to say something especially since that meme journal is over a year old.

Thought I'd actually make a new journal for once because I still like these meme things.

🌈 Lost your virginity? N/A

🌈 Lost someone close to you? Hard to answer

🌈 Consumed alcohol? I have a vague memory of trying my dad's beer when I was really young, don't remember how old. Intentionally maybe like 15 when my mom let me have a sip of wine at New Years

🌈 Received a kiss? N/A

🌈 Went to the hospital? Never for anything unexpected/emergencies; had eye surgery when I was 5

🌈 Had a broken heart? I don't remember tbh

🌈 Lost a pet? 8-9

🌈 Got arrested? Neverrr

🌈 Broke a bone? Technically 13. I tore a ligament in my knee and it actually created a small fracture in my kneecap. So not a full break but close enough

🌈 Got your first job? N/A

🌈 Got a boyfriend or girlfriend? Like 11

🌈 Went to a concert? N/A

🌈 Met someone famous? N/A

🌈 Got in a car wreck? Never been in anything beyond small bumps

🌈 Dyed your hair? Never but want to

🌈 Flew on an airplane? Never

🌈 Went to another State? Less than 1 probably (we live super close to the TN/MS border)

🌈 Went across the country? Never

🌈 Went to another country? Never

🌈 Got a tattoo? Never but might in the future

🌈 Had a piercing? Never and don't want any

🌈 Smoked pot? Never but curious

🌈 Smoked a cigarette? Never really

🌈 Went to Disneyland or Disney World? Never

🌈 Had A Long term relationship? Depends on what you'd call long-term. I guess 16-17

🌈 Dated somebody of another race? 14-15

🌈 Passed out from drinking? Never

🌈 Became a furry? 11-12

🌈 Went to your first non business / work related convention? Never (maybe someday)

I've been debating for a few months since I started uploading gift/trade/swap art from others here, if I should upload old art of my past characters (who I may or may not still use depending on how I feel). There is quite a bit of it though seeing as I've been in the community since 2008, so I'm not sure if I should or not. I guess my question is would anyone want to see it?

Haven't done a journal in a few months so thought I'd do this thing that's going around.

What drew you to the babyfur fandom?
This might be sort of a long answer. I was always drawn to diapers/baby stuff and was aware of my odder interests from an early age. That, combined with unrestricted internet access led to me stumbling upon the *B/DL community at the innocent age of 10. I would lurk and read stories and stuff but didn't really interact. Then about a year or two later someone I was friends with on a Sonic fanforum said they were also a DL and I started exploring it more with them and others, which eventually led to me ending up in the babyfur community. I always liked animals so it just kinda stuck with me naturally.

Are you more babyfur, diaperfur, or something else?
I feel more like a littlefur. I do like diapers but they're not necessary for me and like to focus on other stuff too. My age varies a looot but generally around 4 like my fursona, and can be in anything from diapers to regular undies.

What are your favorite little space or babyfur-related activities and things?
Coloring, playing games, snuggling with plushies, dressing up... all the usual stuff

I've decided to make a journal to list all my characters instead of having them directly on my page. These are listed in alphabetical order. To be updated as needed.

Note: Except on rare/specific occasions, I do not sell/trade characters. Please don't ask.

Name - species - age - ref
Aiden - Rabbit - 4 - Ref

Bookly - Dutch Angel Dragon - N/A - Ref

Echo - Marble fox - Varies - Ref

Jerry - Chipmunk - 4 - Ref

Julian - Cow - 3 - No ref

Kai - Manokit - N/A - No ref

Lily - Panda - 8 - No ref

Max - Red panda - 22 - Ref

Olivia - Shiba Inu - 5 - No ref

Peri - Deer - 21 - Ref

Wally - Sheep - 20 months - Ref

Zee - Black cat - 5 - No ref

Tomorrow (August 6th) is my floofday. It is the day I become floofier, specifically this year I will become 22% floofier. Hair accessories may be needed.

Also for anyone who uses it I set up my Toyhouse account: http://toyhou.se/BunnyAiden The only character I have listed is Aiden, but I'll add others later probably.

This is something I've been toying around with in my head for a while and mentioned to some others, and they said it could be a good idea so I thought I'd ask more publicly.

Basically I can't use PayPal because it's been having issues with verifying my identity, so I've been looking into possible other ways to take commissions, and what I've come up with is taking commissions for Amazon or other site giftcards. However, I do recognize a few issues with this

1. Possible inability to give refunds
2. Difficulty taking commissions from non-US customers
3. Somewhat of an increased risk for being scammed.


So I'm curious what other peoples' thoughts on this are, if they know of a way I could work around this issue or of other possible means of taking money for commissions? Thanks in advance!

Realized I didn't have anything like this posted so posting now.

Will draw/favorite themes
Any genders/orientations
Any species (including humans)
All ages (SFW)
Diapers on any age (clean, wet, or non-detailed messy)
Wetting accidents/non-sexual omorashi
Micro
Chubby characters
Fan characters in my style (meaning if you want me to draw your Sonic/etc OC they will be drawn in my style, not the Sonic style)
Light blood
Paw/sock
[more added when I think of them]

Will not draw
NSFW anything (I may draw it for myself sometimes but not comfortable drawing it for others except maybe close friends)
Hate art of any kind
Gore of any sort (including candy gore)
Extremely fat characters
Detailed messy diapers (anything more than a light stain/bulge)
Exposed scat
Vomit/emeto
Detailed mecha/machines
Hyper muscle


Anything not listed here feel free to ask about. Will edit as needed.

But I don't really have much to say. Uhhh, happy February? Not much has changed for me, just kinda waiting for it to be spring so I can start doing stuff with the zoo again. And also still trying to get going with my GED stuff but a lot of things keep getting in the way of that. I won't loose hope though.

I've been drawing a bit more but been a bit lazy with coloring. I kinda wish someone could do it for me but I know that wouldn't be fair/right x3 I'm working on an updated ref sheet for Aiden and a few other misc things that hopefully I'll post eventually.

I guess I had more to say than I thought but mostly I just wanted a new journal since the last one is old and I'm actually semi-active now. Hope everyone is doing well and keeping warm (unless you're here where it's already reaching the 50's from what I've seen). ^_^

So I blinked again and suddenly it has been three months since I've really done anything furry-related. I've pretty much not drawn anything in that time or really engaged apart from occasional favorites. Likely no one is surprised since I do this a lot but I figured I'd at least do something of an update. Maybe I'll even draw something sometime, but we'll see.

I guess there's also something else I wanted to talk about, but it's kinda hard to word and it feels like I'm making excuses. But in a lot of ways it explains a lot of things about who I am/the way I am. Basically last summer my therapist recommended I get some testing done to figure out if there may actually be some sort of mental thing holding me back. I did this in September and it basically resulted in a diagnosis of mild asperger's syndrome/autism, which was what I was mostly curious about, but more surprisingly a diagnosis of ADHD (primarily inattentive) AKA ADD.

After reading up about it a lot of my struggles from childhood to now made more sense. My inability to focus on tasks I need to do most of the time and just overall difficulty with executive functioning. That's a bit of a basic description but I'm not sure how else to word it. But how that might relate to my time in the furry community is I sort of have trouble balancing my hobbies/interests and will often hyperfocus on certain sites for several months or so. So I guess having that diagnosis made that "cycle" make sense.

This was probably really jumbly but I kinda wrote it spur-of-the-moment so I didn't really have anything planned out to say. I just mainly wanted to let everyone know that I'm okay and hopefully will be active again, or at least something similar to active.

A few months ago I created a smeargle pokesona, but more recently I've been thinking of changing him to be a Flareon. The main reason being that I feel like flareon as a pokemon fits me better personality-wise.

I doubt this really matters to anyone but me, but I just wanted to write it down.

I've tried to write this journal a few times but wasn't happy with it and scrapped it. I've been seeing a lot of people talking about developing their own characters and it made me realize that I didn't really have a solid personality in mind for Aiden, I guess because I haven't spent quite as much time working on them as I have other characters. So here's my attempt at that.

At age 4, the main age I portray them as, Aiden is in pre-school and is curious and eager to learn. They can already read fairly well and show a budding interest in scientific areas like astronomy and geology and are also somewhat creative and love to express themselves. Socially they are pretty shy though and around strangers often hide behind something - usually a plushie. They view plushies as friends rather than toys and are rarely seen without at least one (a trait which follows them into their pre-teens). They have a difficult time approaching other kids though and do better in one-on-one situations.

That's about all I have right now and it was probably a bit jumbled but yeah. Maybe I'll smooth it out later when I'm not tired.

I forgot to mention this, but last week I was away on vacation in Gulf Shores, Alabama. It was very nice but I'm back home now. ^_^

I hope everyone else's week has gone well! I have a lot of stuff to catch up on it seems.

I went on radio silence again, oops. I haven't really had any energy for art still. I sketch sometimes but they never get farther than that, I might still upload those sometime though.

Not a lot new has happened for me either except I'm now 21 and can legally drink apparently. But I probably won't except on some occasions.

Hope everyone else is doing well and enjoying the summer. It's been really hot here unfortunately.

Just like it says on the tin lol. I made a Furvilla account, which is a-bunny. I have two villagers on there, a bunny (of course hehe) and a bat, both are explorers right now but I plan on looking at the other careers once I get used to the layout of the site.

So yeah feel free to add me if you want. I'm still trying to get a feel for things but it seems like a nice site-thing so far. Will be interesting to see how it develops.

Hihi all, sorry for the radio silence again lately. I've been having more sleep schedule issues and haven't really had any energy to draw or interact much, but I'm hoping to remedy that soonish.

Anyway this is just something I was thinking about and wondered what others think. How does one define a sissyfur? The standard definition is basically a male character (usually cub) who is (willingly or otherwise) dressed in a very effeminate way, but I've also read that it can apply regardless of gender and simply refers to very feminine/girly characters (pink, ruffles, bows etc).

I've been sort of trying to explore my more girly side, but despite that I don't really see myself as a "sissy" and I kinda feel uncomfortable at the idea of having that term applied to me. I guess because even when I do feel more girl-ish, it's rarely the whole "fluffy pink frills/lace/bows" type of girly, but more of "pink skirtalls over a striped shirt" type of girly.

Idk, I'm rambling. I know it mostly just boils down to these terms being subjective and up to the person to choose how to define themselves, but I am at least curious how others view it.

Hope everyone is well and staying cool if it is hot where you live. ^_^

So lately, I'd say maybe over the past several months but I can't remember exactly how long it's been, I've been having a lot of really bad nightmares... like so bad that they've made me afraid to sleep at night half the time because I just want them to stop. I've tried positive imagery before bed but it rarely works, I reassure myself that they're just dreams and I'm really safe but still they happen again and again.

There's a few different themes that reoccur but the one that stresses me out the most is a really vivid dream I've had several times in a few different variations, where there is some external force trying to invade somehow. Like a few times it was that there was this alien force trying to invade and basically destroy everything, and that I was one of the ones who had to fight. But a more recent version that was just last night was that I was playing a video game that involved insects, cats, or other animals invading something, only in the dream it really happened, so I was being invaded over and over again by bugs and animals and every time I tried to "reset" it would happen again until I woke up.

The other most reoccurring theme involves being lost/stranded somehow without a way to get back home/to safety. Like going for a walk and somehow suddenly realizing I'm lost and have no phone so I can't get help to go home, or forgetting where I'm supposed to go or something. That one is a little more obvious and probably relates to me feeling lost and overwhelmed with trying to do adult stuff and just wanting to stay in my "safe space".

Idk... there are others but those are the two main. It sounds like a silly thing, I mean, nightmares... but a lot of these tend to be so vivid that I have a hard time telling if they're real or not. Like you know how in cartoons there's a gag where a character wakes up from a nightmare only to still be in a nightmare? That's literally happened to me a few times.

I don't really know what to do about it... I've sort of shied away from talking about it I guess because it feels like such a silly issue, and people will just say "oh, there's nothing to be afraid of, just think of happy things before bed" and I know that and I try to remind myself that but it doesn't really help. So I guess, advice would be appreciated if anyone has it, but I just wanted to get this off my chest because I just want it to stop.

Just a journal to list people I consider to be in my FurFamily.

Note: I do not accept random strangers into my FurFamily. My FurFamily consists of people I've known for a long time and/or talked to a lot and feel a familial bond to. To me they are no different than my biological family. Please respect this

Daddy: N/A
Uncle:
Older brothers:
Twin brother:
Little brothers:
Little sister:

???: (Kirona is a very good friend of mine and I consider it part of my family even if it's not sure how it's supposed to fit.)


If I forgot you, feel free to let me know/reconnect if you want!

This was on a VHS tape I had as a kid with 2 others (Mikey's Elephant and a symphony one I can't remember the name of) and it was always my favorite for some reason, especially the part where Donald gets stuck in the fish bowl. I figured I'd share it since I've moved recently. x3

https://youtu.be/R8FzGOOQNDY

I found this really cute cartoon a while ago but forgot about it until now, so I thought I'd share it here! It's called Timothy goes to School and it's about a little raccoon who goes to kindergarten and his class. It's kind of along the lines of Franklin the Turtle and a few others, and I think it's the perfect cubby show. ^_^

This is the first episode, and most if not all of them are on the same YouTube account:

https://youtu.be/V5L8qHt9Qzw

Just a quick rehash of my journal on my other account to say I've officially moved to this account from  MattCatt and rewatched people.

Also wanted to copy over other places I am so that I have them on this account:


Furiffic: abunny
Weasyl: abunny
DeviantART: BunnyAiden

I still haven't yet watched anyone on those (except Weasyl which was not needed because I could actually change my username there) but I plan on going through them sometime this week.

Thanks again to everyone who has followed me here! I should hopefully have a few drawings to post relatively soonish (apart from the one I'm about to post as my "introductory art")

Just in the process of moving over here from  MattCatt. Thanks for understanding/patience!