so i want o get back into drawing again on the regular. I think it'll help me in alot of ways. we'll see how that goes.

i am super thankful that i have some really good friends out there and the best boyfriend ever! You guys really helped me out! I also was able to secure a new job! This one i have high hopes with. I'll still be able to run my own business, i'll get to choose my own scheduled, i'll know two days in advance, and i'll also be a teacher for the workshops!!! And ontop of that, boss knows business stuff really well, and doesn't seam like a toxic person at all! At my interview, we really talked everything out for 2 hours! Really excited and suuuuper nervous too. My PTSD, and Anxiety are going strong with this new job. What if i fail? What if she doesn't listen to me? Will i just be abandoned again? Ugh it sucks. However, this time i have the knowledge of who i am now, where as before i didn't. So this time round i'll have the understanding of what i'm doing and how to handle it. I have the hope that this time won't be as traumatizing as my last boss. Still doesn't help my nerves though...Bah! Wish me luck guys, and thank you for being around!

I’m begging for help. I don’t know what to do anymore. They shut off my internet and business phone so I can’t run my business outside my cell. I need to renew my license plates by the end of the month but I need car insurance. My salon mate doesn’t want to share her space anymore. No one wants me to hire me, and I’ve been looking for months. The last job interview I had i just walked in and they turned me away. I’m more than 25k in debt on my discover, and I only have 300$ in my bank. I’m so lost I don’t know what to do anymore.....

Everything is a struggle to do anymore. I’m so depressed all the time I don’t have the energy to even take a shower anymore. My depression just tells me to give up, and it’s been wining out more and more often. My hypersomnia makes sleeping unrestful because I have night terrors and move around a lot. Like, last night I dreamt that there was a secret department in every hospital that took the dead, ground them up, and used that to grow a fungus that they were secretly giving to the living to make them sick. My severe PTSD makes working extremely hard. Just finding the will to live takes all my energy these days. I’m just so lost and hopeless.

I’m so scared to admit any of this because I don’t want my puppies taken away from me because I need them. Without them I might seriously be considering suicide.
So I’m putting this out into the universe that I desperately need help. I don’t know who will see this, but ...
https://www.paypal.me/MisfitCreationsLLC
please find it in your heart to give what ever you can. Or if you can’t, give a signal boost. Thank you

Man, it's been a while. I'm still here, just more active else where. So if you'd like to keep up with what i do, follow my business @ misfitcreationsllc on Instagram, and Facebook. I also still stream my gaming on my YouTube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/vilgirl732 . I'll maybe get around to writing what's been happening to me since the last time, but I'm super busy these days so i wouldn't hold your breath. Anyway, I'm here, just in stalking mode. ya need me, you know where to find me.

I quit my job. It was a long time coming. with the continued rejection of my thoughts and opinions, the working and giving everything to them with out being acknowledged, the overall ignorence, working with that many women in one confined space, bad core principals, a broken system, and continued agrivation..... just all of it. i couldn't take it anymore. so i quit. on one hand it feels libirating to not have to get up and go deal with all of that shit. i can be me again. i don't have to sensor myself. i don't have to feel opressed. and this time i have medication to help me get through the time till i figure out what happens next. i do feel guilty that i will be leaving behind alot of friends and some good people. I know that if it wern't for 4 people, i would gladly volenteer to work with most of them on any bad day. so i feel conflicted. However, i know that this was a long time coming and i made the right decision for me! my mental health has to come first.they couldn't offer me that. staying there would have left my mind in fractured pieces. i could not allow that. so here i am. nervous as fuck. i have enough faith to know that i'll be ok, no matter what happens. what ever happens is what was meant to happen. please send me good vibes in the mean time. i'll be glad to come back to my furry brothers and sisters <3 see you all around!

Hai guys! It's been a loooon time. Overall, i'm doing soooo much better than before. I'm on anxiety and depression meds that have made a world of diffrence! it has been such a relief now to have them. Also, I've started up a new Ustream Gaming channel just to stream me playing my games! So hop on over there to check out me streaming my games. It usually is WoW, but i stream things from my PS4 too. Anyway, Love yo faces! TTFN! <3

so with the summer months coming up, i'll be busier than ever, and won't have time to be on here much at all. While i'm not really actively posting on here anymore, i do hop on every night to see all the pretty arts n' stuff. So if you really want to get a hold of me, WoW or texting is preferred, shoot me a message or a shout, and i'll notice it better among the sea of notifications. love you guys <3

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/15...../#cid:93750268 because i needed this yesterday!

I miss being so close to you all. I should start drawing more again.... I'm sorry i've been distant for a while now. I've just been through so much life changes that i've kinda grown apart from the furry community. i still consider myself a furry, but i'm not around you all enough anymore i feel. I miss the cuddles and the support that you all gave me. I wish i could give you all the time that i want to. I'm sorry...please forgive me?

come watch!

streaming more wow :D Come join! :D

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can go fuck itself. I am done with it's shit.

because why not :3

What is your Fursona's name?
Gwiibear/Gerrit

What made you choose the species of your main fursona?
it sorta just came to me after talking with some other furry friends :3

Is your fursona just like you, or how you want to be?
fursona=me=fursona :3 I'm one and the same :3 My fursona is just a different side :3

Does your fursona have the same personality you have?
yep

Does your fursona have the same dislikes and likes as you do?
Yep.

Does your fursona look like you at all?
yep :3

Is your fursona the same gender as you, if not why?
Yes and no. Gerrit is my male form, Gwii is my female form

Do you have more then one main fursona?
I'm not too sure how to answer this one since gerrit=gwii

Do you have a back story for your fursona, if so does it have anything to do with your own history?
no story, except for lineage :3

Is your fursona mated, if so is it to your real life significant other?
no, i spose not, but i do have a wonderful boyfriend who isn't a fursona :3 So Gwii's cock of choice is either Gerrit's, Anubis's, or my boy who has made a few appearances in some other drawings :3

If not are they looking for a mate, or are they a swinger so to speak?
not looking for a mate, but i suppose swinger?

Is there something special about your fursona that you think sets them apart from others?
I am completely unique :3

Do you have much art of your main fursona/s?
all of my gallery is of Gwii or gerrit x3

Would you ever consider parting with your main fursona, if so why?
not an option =_=

If you suit, do you have a suit of your main fursona?
I do :D

Have you ever roleplayed with your main fursona, or do you prefer not to?
I did it once, but that didn't really go so well due to inexperience on the other party's part. I haven't RP'd with her since and would prefer to keep it that way indefinitely.

Do you consider your main fursona to be a part of you in any way?
see No.3

So after quite a few months of extreme stress, causing me to become reclusive almost to the point of Agoraphobia, and some much needed therapy, i feel like I'm well enough to start socializing again.
I'm sorry if i've worried a few people, but when i get reclusive like that, it's really just because i need some me time. I still need lots of me time while i continue to recover though, so patience is appreciated.
But i haven't been sitting on my ass not being creative :) Oh no! Those that follow my facebook, or twitter know that i have been very busy doing creative things with my nails! So i have alot of pictures of all of the nail art that i've been doing that i want to show you all!! they look really cool! They range from Star Trek: Into Darkness inspired, Pacific Rim inspired, and even my latest Sons of Anarchy inspired! And there will be plenty more as i have to redo my nails every 2-2.5 weeks :D!
So over the next few days i'll work on uploading some of my works to show you all :) So sorry for the pic spam xD

Please stay tuned, ne? :D

So i had a great time on Saturday, and ended up staying the night. I had a blast seeing old friends, and meeting a few new ones. I had a great time :D

So I guess this weekend is RMFC! things have been so busy i didn't really know. I have the possibility of going for Saturday because i'd love to see all my friends <3 so look for me tomorrow i suppose!

real life is super busy *sagenod*

To prove i'm not dead, here is a meme for you all! taken from one of my friends

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
in every way :3

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
i see nothing wrong. a bit on the creepy side, but i don't think i'm that old :P

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
never :P

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
i usually do, though it might be fake.

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
I know a couple of my guy friends might be jellous of my boyfriend for having me, but nothing beyond that i think.

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
yep :3

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
My N7 hoodie, PJ panda pants, and my Adam Lambert shirt

8. How often do you listen to music?
all the time. I always have something in the background. Lately i've been enjoying JT's new album 20/20 :3

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
jeans. I don't own a pair o sweats

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2014?
Yes :3

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
It depends on what day you catch me on. lately i've been wanting to be more left alone, have some peace and quiet except for those i talk to first.

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
No I don't think i have.

13. What about ‘R’?
Technically my boy has a middle name of Ryan, so does that count?

14. Can you drive a stick shift?
not in the slightest.

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
Yes i do care. If you have an issue with me, tell me so! Then we can work it out or part ways. Be respectful! I probably don't know i'm even doing anything to annoy you!

16. Are you going out of town soon?
nope

17. When was the last time you cried?
earlier. I was so nervous talking to someone that after i got done talking to them, i started crying out of relief. it was weird..

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
Every day :3

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
Oh hellz yeah! Give me ice blue baby :D

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
yes :) Several infact, though one very special one :3 <3

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
it went by too quickly :P

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
yes :3

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
Yes :3

24. What are you sitting on right now?
my chair

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
yep :3 All the time and from a few people :3

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
Nope. I get what i want some how :)

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
My boyfriend :) As usual :3

28. Do you get a lot of colds?
not really.

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
Um... I believe i got this at his concert i went to :3

30. Does anyone hate you?
Not that i know of O_o

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
no, i throw them in the trash, and i don't hide them :P

32. Do you like watching scary movies?
Yes! Thought in recent years, i've found that i can't watch them alone for my mental health :/

33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
no waay!!!

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
2009. all of that please.

35. Did you have a dream last night?
Yes, but i can't remember it now...

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
a few minutes ago

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
I should hope so.

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
I know they do :3

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
most certainly :)

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
Meh. i suppose so :)

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
yep.

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
if you count online, then yes.

43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
Several people actually. It really touches my heart to know that i've impacted them that much <3

44. What’s the best part about school?
Learning :D

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
yep a few ^^;;

46. Did you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
did once. got caught. never doing that again

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
all the time. it's called reflection

48. Were you single over the last summer?
nope

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
not at all! almost a complete 360

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
bed.

51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
nope :)

52. Are you nice to everyone?
I try to be :D

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
no. I defiantly have a type.

54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
Been in a relationship for 7 years and have never cheated. i think i got that down pat.

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
not so much anymore

56. Do you think you like someone?
I like alot of people

57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
Yes i have

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
Boys! much easier to relate to!

59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
a few have. I don't like to cry in front of people, but since the past few years, my body doesn't really give me a say in it >.>

60. Do you hate anyone?
there's one person who i could live with out. and hopefully i'll never have to see or deal with her again!

61. How’s your heart?
um... good?

62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
The death of my mother :(

63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
yep!

64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
hopefully no one

65. Are your toenails painted pink?
not today

66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
nope! It's always purposeful and needy >:3

67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
it depends on the situation.

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
nope. thought i have gotten them pulled down :/ not fun.

69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
does skype count? if so , my boy. if not, then my brother :)

70. How do you look right now?
tired and a bit grungy. I need to take a shower =_=;;

71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
Everyone all the time. what's the point in being fake?

72. Can you commit to one person?
Have for 7 years

73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
several infact

74. Have you ever felt replaced?
Yes, but more in the sense of life has dictated that i have done all i can for that person, and i am not needed in their life any more. So i usually just go with the flow and just check up on them :)

75. Did you wake up cranky?
Not unless i've been woken up repeatedly.

76. Are you a jealous person?
it depends

77. Are relationships ever worth it?
every single relationship is, be it friendship, or lover. every single one is worth while!

78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
only one, and she's on my hate list.

79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
not in particular.

80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
write a references page for my resume, play chess with a friend for an RP event, rebase my nails, come up with an easter nail art, call my boy, play Tera, play wow,... the list goes on....

81. Last person you cried in front of?
I can't remember..

82. Is there someone you will never forget?
All of my friends i will never forget

83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
adamantly so!

84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
cuddling in bed sleeping

85. Are you over your past?
Not yet, still healing

86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
Yep! that's how all of my relationships have started out

87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
several actually

88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
Yes, but we wouldn't get together obviously, but i'd invite him in for some tea :)

89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
Oh hells yeah :D

90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
Don't think so

91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
Yep

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
a few actually

93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
all the time :3

94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
yep! and it goes really well :3

95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
yep :)

96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
I think so :3

97. Who do you have texts from?
a few

98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
I wouldn't say anything. I would be truly flabbergasted and heart-broken.

99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
yep, once. it never worked out :/

100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
just me :3

101. Ever kissed under fireworks?
yep 3

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
I give my slef butterflies all the time xD

have you voted today? GO DO IT!

60 Questions People Don't Usually Ask Survey

When's the last time you ran?
yesterday at work/school... there were leftover pizza.

Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them?
on purpose, yes.

What are you dreading right now?
a few things

Do you celebrate 420?
Nope

Do you get the full 8 hours of sleep a night?
i try to get 8 hours at least.

If anyone came to your house on your "lazy days" what would ya'll do?
play games

Who last grabbed your ass?
my boy :3

Have you ever been on your school's track team?
nope. not a runner

Do you own a pair of Converse?
i did i think....

Did you copy and paste this survey?
of corse! it's more productive to do that! like they say, no use in reinventing the wheel, no?

Do you eat raw cookie dough?
if i happen to have cookies, i will.

Have you ever kicked a vending machine?
don't think i have

Don't you hate it when the radio ruins good songs by playing them over and over?
not really. if i think it's a song that i really like, i don't mind it at all. infact, when i find a new song i like, i usually play it atleast 100 times in a row before i move on (depending on my level of fandom)

Do you watch Trading Spaces?
nope. I watch spongebob.

How do you eat oreos?
twist them appart, eat the cream filling, then move on to the next one, perhaps occasionally eating the cookie part if i feel like it.

Have you ever stayed online for a very long time waiting for someone?
i think i have....

Are you cocky?
not in particular, but i can be if i know my stuff.

Could you live without a computer?
not voluntarily!

Do you wear your shoes in the house?
nope

Who or what sleeps with you?
my puppies do :3 and my boyfriend uppon occasion when i see him

At what age did you find out that Santa wasn't real?
4th grade

How many phones, house phones and cell phones are in your house?
4 i think. mine, my roomie's, and 2 neglected house phones from way back when i had a house number.

What do you do when you're sad?
withdraw and listen to sad music.

Who would you call first if you won the lottery?
my boyfriend

Last time you saw your best friend?
yesterday :) I have so many, and i saw all of them yesterday :D

Are you in high school?
hahhaha wow. highschool, that brings back memories....

What jewelry are you wearing?
my 3 rings, my necklace, and my earrings.

Is anyone on your bad side now?
one person at school. she's a lying, cheating, disgusting letch of a person >_>

What's the first thing you do when you get online?
usually start up wow. I check my e-mail on my phone :)

Do you watch Grey's Anatomy?
used to... when it was good.

How do most people spell your name?
only one way really ^^;;

Would you wear a boy/girlfriends clothes?
i do all the time :D

Where do you work?
i'm at the internship stage of my training to become a nail technician at the Salon Professional Academy :D

What are you doing tomorrow?
the same thing i do every day, pinky. go to school, and try and take over the world... of warcraft.

What is the last thing you drank?
water

Favorite name for a girl?
Alexandria

Favorite name for a boy?
Gerrit

Will you keep your last name when you get married?
nope, probably not.

When was the last time you left your house?
yesterday

Do you return your cart?
indeed i do :)

Do you have a dishwasher?
yep :3

What noise do you hear?
the fans on my computer

Would you survive in prison?
no way!!!!!

Who is the youngest in your family?
my youngest cousin :) or Mac if you count my puppies :)

If all of your friends were going on a road trip, who would most likey overpack?
I really don't know.... someone would perhaps.

Do you know anyone with the same name as you?
nope :P

What's the last thing you purchased?
borderlands 2 for my boy :)

Do your siblings ever pay for stuff for you?
yes :) he payed for popcorn when we went to the movies :D

What brand are your pants right now?
i'm not wearing pants xD I'm wearing a Kigurumi :3

Ever been to Georgia (the state)?
maybe?

What irritates you most on the internet?
trolls

What brand is your digital camera?
sony

Do you watch movies with your parents?
no :( I can't anymore....

What song best describes your life right now?
I gotta feeling - Black Eyed Peas

Do you own expensive perfume/cologne?
yep

Are you taking college classes right now?
nope

Do you like sushi?
YES!!!!

Do you get your hair cut every month?
not every month

Do you go online everyday?
oh yeah!

What kind of underwear are you wearing right now?
victoria secret ones :)


20 Questions about your Boy/Girlfriend
What is their name?
Matthew :3

What pet name do you like to call them?
does sweetie count? i used to have one, but he didn't like it, so i stopped :P

How long have you been together?
6 years

How did you meet?
college :)

What do you like the most about them?
his humor

What do you like the least about them?
his humor

What is the best thing they have ever done for you?
asked me to go steady :3

Have they met your parents yet?
many times xD

What would you kids look like if you had kids?
they would look beautiful or handsome!

What is the worst argument you have had?
it was over our lack of communication. broke up for one week, then we worked things out :)

Do you still kiss a lot?
yes :3

Who asked who out?
he asked me out :)

Do you think you will get married?
yes :)

Can you see yourself growing old with them?
yep! and it's hilarious xD

What is the one thing you would like to change about them?
his antisocial-ness.

What do you think they would like to change about you?
my cleaning habbits

Who is the "alpha" in the relationship?
he is by a hair.

Do you have a favorite song together?
"Do you Want To" -Franz Ferdinand

Which famous person do you think they look like the most?
Danial Radcliffe

Would you say the two of you are a good match?
yes :3


Have You Ever?
Given a Hickey?
yep >:3

Had a one night stand?
nope

Made someone cry?
perhaps one person...

Opened your Christmas presents early?
i could only open one present early.

Been online for more than 10 hours in a row?
yeah xD

Pretended to be someone you weren't online?
oh man that was a fun time xD

Eaten food that fell on the floor?
10 seconds!!!!!!

Been caught cheating?
nope!

Been caught naked?
once. i believe there's a rather embarrassing photo of me with a balloon when i was 2.....

Flashed someone?
nope, unless my boyfriend counts :3

Gone out without underwear on?
once. i was embarrassed the whole day.

Got into a fist fight?
once. i won.

Swallowed bath water?
yep

Peed in the pool?
yep

Thrown up in public?
probably when i was a kid.

Been so drunk you can't walk?
once i think, yes.

Peed in public?
never!

Broken wind and blamed someone else?
yes xD

Done something mean you regretted?
yes :/

Ever played pull my finger?
what a stupid game :P

what can i say, it was fun! I had a great time despite skipper's finger. Had a great time meeting some new friends, and eating and suiting! i don't know about next year though, being mamabear wears you down, ya know? we'll see though. love your faces!