As the title implies i have returned from Further Confusion 2020 (came back Monday) and it was a blast! From not attending a furry convention for quite a while now this was a great con to get back into the swing of things. This was my first FC and it will not be my last for sure. To tell the truth I was not sure i was going to be able to make the convention. I had a last minute hotel room debacle with a couple of furs on telegram (not gonna get into the whole story) but luckily i was able to find room space thanks to  sorarocks531 Got to see people i haven't seen in a while, didn't really attend a whole lot of panels but I did fursuit quite a bit. The theme was awesome, just wish i had some cyber punk themed gear to wear for the theme besides my wolf hoodie and visor. Will I go net year? Very possible but there are some things i would do differently: 1. Stay at the Hilton next time, parking seems better over there and isn't expensive like the Marriot 2. Either find someone to ride with to the con or maybe just fly there. I hardly used my rental car at all other than driving (five hours to San Jose from Arcadia, then back 5 days later) and since parking on the street is limited i pretty much walked to certain restaurants for different meals. I hesitate on flying there since i would be flying with my fursuit and since its new bin is heavy duty it probably be expensive to check on a plane 3 Not spend so much money at the dealers den. 4. Stay an extra day. That being said I have a lot of photos and videos to go through. Probably not going to upload all my photos from FC here (mainly due to having to find the respective suiters info on here) Keep an eye out for photos

Merry Christmas everyone! Sorry havent journaled anything for quite a while but then again nothing new to journal about till now. I am going to Further Confusion 2020! I am all registered for the con and excited since it will be my first time at FC. Now the hard part of it: First i need to find someone who is looking for hotel room mates to help with hotel costs and two, finding someone who is willing drive me out there (I could drive there but i hate driving that long alone). So if anyone is look for hotel roommates to help off set room costs and maybe someone who can give me a lift to the con.

So i finally got around to making this journal, thought about making a video as well but i doubt anyone would want to see me talk. Overall my rating for anime expo this year is, well a 5 out of 10. Why? Well first day of the con, i was in line for three hours, missed a live showing of Naruto and was late to the Naruto EOneBook panel. The con was testing a new entry system using scan badges for entry and re-entry into the con, which resulted in the system going down on the first day. After that most of the day was smooth. Second day entry was a lot better and fursuited that day and went to the furry gathering that was happening there but later i tried going to cosplay chess and was not allowed in due to not knowing you had to line up at a different location of the convention to get into the panel and the same thing happened with a digimon panel the next day. Did get some good stuff at the exhibit hall but overall i had an alright time. Really wished i had people to go with because honestly i was lonely at the con, both in and out of fursuit. I mean i met up with people but didnt really hang out with anyone, tried coordinating with a few but missed each other completely. I did get asked for pictures when i was in fursiut but still wish i had at least one person with me.Food was over priced (literally disneyland prices). I dont know if will go next year or not, really hard to say right now.

I know I sound like a broken record but is anyone (especially any SoCal furries) staying at a hotel for Anime Expo in Los angels? Looking someone who is needing hotel room mates for con, will gladly contribute to hotel room expenses. If you know someone who is looking for hotel roommates for anime expo, please let me know, would greatly appreciate it.

Any SoCal furs here going to Anime Expo? Looking for someone who is going have a hotel room at the con and is looking for hotel roommates. will contribute to hotel room expenses

I know i mentioned this in a previous journal but i am looking for someone who is looking for hotel roommates for Anime Expo. Will help with hotel room costs. Please let me know if anyone is looking for con hotel roommates

Yup you heard right, turned 28 today, the big two eight. I don't feel any older but then again who wants to feel old, not me! :P Apologies for not posting any journals recently, been really busy and haven't had really anything great to post about. Still looking for a different job besides working in a grocery store, been losing motivation to post pictures on here from fur meets, not sure why but do post videos on youtube, just wished i had better editing software. Any ways, I am now saving up for Anime Expo this July. However i cannot afford a hotel room to stay there, so i am looking for furs who are looking for hotel roommates for the con who will help with hotel room costs.

Seeing how old my last journal post is almost 3 months old, decide to give a little update. Still working at a grocery store, getting sick and tired of it though. Honestly I am afraid to find something else because i don't know what to look for really. I have only considered doing photography really as a job but no luck in finding any positions that don't require "experience". It's not like i am getting horrible hours, (which i am not) it's just i am sick of being there, i feel like every time i go to work, i'm always the one that is dealing with problems in the store and having to do everyone's job. The pay has gotten a little better (as long as i have 21 hours, my paycheck will always be 200+ a week) but like any other person i want more. Any ways enough of my rambling/life issues, ever since i saw Ace of Hearts Fox's May the 4th video covering furry species in the Star Wars Universe, i now want to create a jedi fursona. I made a poll of which species should be chosen for this new OC and the species that won was Selonian (they are pretty much an otter race in Star Wars) So now I just need to find an artist who can draw this OC (in Star wars style of course) and come up with a name.

so turned 27 today, had a good day even though i had to work had a good birthday dinner afterwards and got some good gifts.

So my review of 2017: Pretty much it sucked. Nothing really changed for me in regards to job situation. Lost my grandmother (mom's mom) in February, one of my favorite Star Wars actors passed away (Carrie Fisher [yes i know she passed away in 2016 but it started my new year with a sour mood]) and worst of all i got robbed at gunpoint in April, and lost all my original ref sheets and art (it still hurts to this day) I just want this wretched year to be over already

so i am not sure really where this is coming from, but all of a sudden i am thinking about getting a full suit (just the body) for my partial fursuit of Rouga Fang my fursona (i have a twitter poll for this https://twitter.com/Rouga_Fang/stat.....64024277794816 ). The problem is that my fursona, when you see art of of him, he is mostly wearing clothes (except for the arms, head and feet) in his usual leaf jounini shinobi attire and if i do go a full suit route with him, am i going to be able to adapt the look to a full body fursuit or am i going to have make some outfit changes to him which i really do not want to do if that is the case. I have seen pics of full suit fursuiters wearing clothing such as pants and what not but i don't know if want to go to the full suit route yet or not

I wanna share a personal feeling i have here. There are times when i go to meets/cons and I am (for lack of better words) busy with taking numerous photos/videos of fursuiters i feel left out at the meet. Why? because i feel this need to keeping photos and video or i am going to miss something funny/awesome yet i cannot tear myself away to take part in other activities and i just feel like im not getting the fun time i want at meets. I dont want to stop taking pictures/video but at the same time i want to just spend time doing fun things while in fursuit. Just a personal feeling/thought

I do not understand some fur's need to criticize something or point out the obvious wrong thing in a photo or picture when it's not needed. Where I am coming from on this is that I posted a photo facebook for fursuit friday and the first two comments on it were how bad the other fursuiter looked and I am just like "really? you can't just not comment?" If you don't have anything nice to say then don't say it. I'm sorry i dont care if it's a free country or whatever, you do not need to leave something negative unless to suppose to be a critque for improvement.

It's almost been two months since i got robbed at gunpoint. This week has been rough for me, lot of pent up anger towards the cowards (all three were male) who robbed me taking the things that were precious to me. I kind of kick myself for keeping those things in the backpack that was taken but i never expected i would ever be held up at gun point let alone robbed. However some of things were found, one of them was my sketchbook but sadly the art (which was in a separate gray folder) was not found. The thieves had dumped the items in someone's front yard and the person who found them turned it into the place where i work (my work apron and name badges was one of the things). I have been in counseling trying to move on from this. Thought i was getting better but this week i don't why but anger towards the thieves is just boiling in me right now. It hasn't effected me working but I just cannot keep this anger in. Worse some the items i lost replaced put me into a bit of a financial scare to which i managed to get out of. I am having a hard time in finding motivation to redrawing everything that was taken/lost. I already retraced my first ever ref sheet (i had already scanned them long before this happened) with a LED tracing tablet. I tried re-drawing it myself but i am kind of a perfectionist in i want it to be exactly how it was the first time. I am angry, I am sad, and worst of all I am having hard time with motivation.

Well after Califur I am now in need of funds so I am selling some things on eBay. If you are interested, take a look of what I have to sell, if not I ask if you can share the link to others who may be interested https://www.ebay.com/usr/rougafang

Well I had a great time at Califur this year, despite some bumps/headaches there. Caught up with some friends there and met some new furries there as well, including a dutch certain angel dragon. Downside was the battery box that powers the fan in my suit head, no longer functions via a broken wire (which now results in me shipping my head back to the maker to get it fixed). Other than that it was great. Accomplished my goal of not buying any prints in the Dealers Den but i did get an awesome furry statue from the art auction (plus a naruto decal for my laptop). Can't for next year, which will be a western theme for Califur. Oh and here is my long Califur Convention video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBIxfgSzQKE

Now then I am possibly considering going to Anime Expo with my fursuit. If i do i would like to room with some other fursuiters/furries. The cost of going as an attendee plus seeing the masquarade is around 105 dollars, however would need to see who i could room with plus the cost. I know could just drive to the con but i wouldnt have really any place to change into my fursuit/cosplays so i rather room with someone (plus the cost of food but that's nothing). Problem is i would do all of these purchases right before con since i need to work back the money i spent at Califur. If anyone is looking for roomates for anime expo, could put me down a possible roommate.

Since some furs are doing this, i decided to do this as well. Lets Begin! :P

What Day Are You Getting There?
Early Friday morning to get my badge and attend the opening ceremony

How Are You Getting there?
Driving

Staying At?
Sheraton Fairplex Hotel in Pomona

Who Are you rooming with?
I am staying with  SilfurNakamura  Foxtrack  wogglebugg and  Takoda_The_Fox

What Do You look like?
6'3, short blonde hair, white, little chubby (human form)

Best Way To find you?
Silver/White Wolf in Naruto Leaf Jouunin Shinobi gear (with leaf headband) carrying a camera and camcorder

Attending Panels/Events?
Will be Attending a few panels/events,

Are you single or taken
100% Single

Will You be suiting up?
Of course!

Do you do art?
Yes but only for myself. Not confident enough to try drawing for others

Do you make badges?
No

Do You do trades?
No

Gender?
Male

How tall are you?
6'3, some say i look taller than that

Can I chat with you?
Of course, im a little shy but i do like to chat

Can I hug you?
YES!!

Can I give you free stuff?
If you want to :)

Can I hug/snuggle you
Sure

Are you nice?
Of course

Will you go to parties
No not a party person but will go to the dances

Will you be performing?
No im not that good of a performer

Where you be eating?
At the hotel and also some cheap places to eat

Can i join you for food?
Maybe, going to try eat with my roommates

Can I look in your sketchbook
Maybe but see my previous journal

Can i draw in your sketch book?
You can if you sign your drawing

Can I take your picture?
YES TOTALLY!

What's your goal(s) for Califur this year?
To make new friends (the more the merrier), try to get over what happened to me recently, build my photography portfolio, and get better video footage of the con this year than i did last year

To everyone can you please keep me in your thoughts/prayers? Last night just as got home from work I was robbed at gunpoint after pulling into my garage. The robbers took everything i had with me, including my back pack that had my sketch book with all my drawings. I am so upset right now and so scared. My wallet, smartphone, ipod, backpack which containted my ipad, sketchbook, work apron and jacket. Please please keep me in your prayers/thoughts. I have already called my bank to deactivate my card and the phone company to deactivate the phone that was stolen and the police were called last night and i gave as much info as i could to them.

Hey everyone, I am selling my old Dell Studio 1747 Laptop computer and i am asking $175 for it. I received this in 2010 and used it for college and every day stuff. Since i got my new laptop in 2015, it has pretty much been sitting doing nothing except take up space. I have uninstalled everything not need for the laptop, installed windows 10 on it, cleared everything personal (files and programs) and removed any accounts on it. It does have a decal on the back of the laptop. Display is over 17 inches. has 3 usb ports (however the bottom right one doesn't work for some reason may need a usb hub or have hardware expert replace it) an hdmi port and a SD card reader. Everything works fine, it is slow on start up but works fine afterwards. I have microsoft edge and firefox installed but for some reason when i try to install google chrome, the browser will not open. Other than that and the usb port, everything else is fine. This is a good computer for office work and maybe a home computer because it's size and weight. It is a bit heavy because of the size of the laptop and its battery. Again i am asking $175 USD but i am open to offers. This is a pick up listing because this would be a pain to ship out. Pictures of the laptop can be found here: https://www.dropbox.com/sh/87jyfpwg.....nCFFb-k5a?dl=0

With Califur coming up in less than two months, i really need to save up for the hotel costs and maybe for one or two things from the dealers den. So i am selling a bunch of things on eBay and you might find something there you like/need.
Here is my ebay page: http://www.ebay.com/usr/rougafang check what i am selling

Well today, February 1, 2017. my grandmother (my mom's mom) passed away at age 95 at 12:15 pm from a heart attack. The paramedics/doctors were able to revive her from it but her heart was so damaged she wasn't able to stay alive much long after the heart attack. I knew she was fading away fast but i wish it were under more peaceful circumstances. At least she passed away quietly and peacefully. She is now at peace now with her husband, my grandfather in heaven, reunited at last. Rest In Peace Grandma

So obviously my fursona is leaf shinobi from the world of Naruto. The problem: I haven't really given him a good back story yet. I originally had one on Furry4Life but as many of you know, that site shut down a while back and deleted everything. Granted it's back up again but now i have re-register everything and add all new information. So i feel the need to give him not only a good back story but also a team. In Naruto most shinobi start out in three people teams plus a jounin captain. Granted my fursona is already a jounin but i would like him to have good back story including team of two other anthros and one captain who is a anthro as well. My question is should they be all once species (all canine like my fursona) or should they be different species and if so what species (no exotic/mythical animals since most of the summoning animals are regular animals, just gigantic)?

Happy New year everyone!! May 2017 be a better and more productive year for eveyyone :)

So Halloween this year was a BLAST! I went on a halloween fursuit walk in south Pasadena hosted by  Takoda_The_Fox and it was great.  KonaRoo and Eric the lion  mad21 along with two others furs joined us for the walk and we had a ton of fun. Lot of people and kids wanted pictures with us, some kids thought we were werewolves, others thought we were form Zootopia, and few kids were even singing What does the fox say when we walked by. It just sucked that Halloween was on a Monday this year ( and next year a Tuesday) because if it were on a weekend, i think we would have had a lot more furs/fursuiters joined but it was still an awesome Halloween night. On another note, THE CUBS WON THE WORLD SERIES THIS YEAR! 1908 was the last time they won a world (before the goat curse incident) and now they won this year at Wrigely Field. Looks like the curse has been broken. I am little sad that the Dodgers didn't win this year but I am estatic that the cubs finally won the worlds series after a long time.

Not sure how to describe how i feel right now. First i find out that someone who was part of a group, that i am a part of with many others, just lost family to a horrible crime, was worried to hear that this person was missing (met this person at a meet) then come to find out that not only was that person found, but was found with two other people (one of which i thought i knew and respected) were involved in the crime. How can anyone do that to their own family? Not to mention the other people participating in this crime. This has not only caused pain and suffering to family but it has caused pain, suffering, and drama to those who thought they knew this person well. Sometimes i don't even know what real anymore