Hi there again!!

I took a break during the website crash a few months ago and never really got back into the swing of being on FA.

A lot has happened over the course of the last few months. I got a job working only a few hours a week and this got me back on the road to having a normal life after having my health issues. I'm happy to report I just received a second job and I'm looking forward to having stable income again after almost two years of hardship.

Like I mentioned in journals before, being sick allowed me the time to get back into my artistic side. I'm going through somewhat of a self-renaissance! I have been doing a ton of writing and I've finally hit on an idea for a book that I am super excited about. I have learned so much about writing; how to stick with a project, make an outline and have the right attitude. It is one of my greatest dreams to publish a book some day and I feel like my journey with that has finally begun!

My head hasn't really been in photography-mode. I have been doing much more writing and drawing. I'm unsure about what the future is going to look like for this page; how much I'm going to use it and what is going to be posted. I'm just not sure and I don't want to keep myself in a box. I could post the first drafts of my book here. Or some random poetry. Whatever it is that I post, I hope you enjoy it. Thank you so much if you're still following my work. I know I am consistently inconsistent and I often dissapear. When something inspires me, I follow the bunny trail and often this takes me away from the computer.

As always, thank you for sticking around!!
Cam

Motor City Furcon 2025 was amazing. It was a con of firsts; I fursuited at a con for the first time, I walked in the fursuit parade, I got art from artist's alley and my partner went with me!

It was the biggest blow off of steam I have ever had after dealing with a year of frightening health issues. At the con I recieved a job offer, had someone commisson traditional art from me and I got the good news from my doc. Surely I have used up all of my good luck!

I have some kind of gluten intolerance as well as oat/avenin intolerance. I have been eating gluten free for a little over a year but became sick this past September when I reintroduced oats into my diet, making the mistake thinking that gluten free oats would be safe. Little did I know I also have an intolerance to oats as well. Fun stuff! Luckily, MCFC has two restaurants that offer gluten AND oat free options a ten minute walk away. It feels like a miracle, honestly. To travel and not go hungry because of my food intolerance is seriously a miracle!

MCFC 2025 felt like a great send off to this chapter of my life. A chapter that has been so drenched in sadness and fear. Since I have ironed out my diet, I have felt SO much better. I can't even really explain it. I cried a lot at the dance comp; just being able to be there after half a year afraid to leave my house and afraid to eat. I felt like a new person when I was on the dance floor saturday night. I danced like it could have been my last night alive.

Throughout my time stuck at home, I dived back into writing, art and poetry. Some days it is all I had besides the support of my partner. I have been thinking about what it would mean to really make a life for myself that I could be proud of. I'm an artist, photographer, poet and novelist and I want to act like it. I wish so badly that I could thrive in an academic environment but as of right now I don't think that is possible. Especially under the stress of dealing with the political hell-scape in the US.

As you can see, I've had the time to do a lot of thinking.

I finally renamed my main fursona (since her old name was super edgy). Her new name is Dusk, harkening to the way of being inbetween. Between light and dark, night and day, male and female, healty and sick, alive and dead, alone and together. It was nice to get a badge with her new name on it made to honor this transition in my life.

Thanks for reading, sticking around and looking at my photos (and soon my art!),
Cam

First of all, I want to say that I'm intending to post more often. Things are looking up as far as my health situation goes and I have spent some of my time resting going though my entire photo backlog. I'm really excited to share some of the gems that I totally forgot about! During my time being stuck at home I got back into doing traditional art and my passion writing project. I have gotten back in touch with myself. I wish I didn't have to go through a health crisis to allow myself to do that, but here we are. I'm thankful that some good has come out of this last year and a half of craziness.

I'm planning on going to Motor City Furcon 2025. I had an absolute blast last time so I'm very excited to go back. Will I see any of you there?

I hope everyone who finds this journal is doing well. This is my favorite way to connect to the fandom outside of going to conventions. I don't like tiktok, instagram, twitter and I'm skeptical of bluesky. Which sites are the majority of the fandom using anyway? I hope those who are following me are still anticipating a photo post or seeing a journal pop up here and there.

All the best,
Cam

Hope everyone is doing well,

For the last year I have been struggling with health issues on and off. This September everything came to a head; I had a very frightening episode and since I've been going under rigourus medical testing. I had to withdraw from my college classes and I am currently unable to work.

I have good days and bad days and on my good days I love getting out and taking photos when I can. I haven't been uploading consistently for a while now. My condition worsened in October of 2023 and it has been an uphill battle with the hill becoming steeper and steeper. Now I feel like I'm climbing a dune. Every day is a fight and every night it has been scary to sleep.

Luckily me and my medical team are onto something and I have some testing coming up that will hopefully get to the bottom of my condition. It has been especially hard because since the initial episode in September; my ailmient has been some kind of freak-of-nature mystery. It greatly affects my life and ability to function but I'm only grasping at what I think helps on a day to day bases. The days that are really bad are very scary. I found myself in the emergency room twice in one week at the beggining of all of this. I have been fortunate to find little things that help to keep it under control for now.

I've been cruising through my photo backlog and feeling like maybe I can start to post again. For me, orgainzing my photos and editing feels like a chore. I don't enjoy it. I much prefer being out in nature and getting the shots to sitting at a computer. I have seen this time of my life, where I can hardly do anything, as a return to self and exploration of my creativity. I'm a writer and traditional artist as well as a photographer and I'm trying to reclaim that. Trying to get through each dreary, Michigan fall day has been tinted with shades of hope; a lot of good has come out of this.

As always, thanks to you all who have been sticking around. I'll try to post when I can. My SD cards and photos are in dissaray. I find it hard to organize everything between two cameras (my beefy macro machine and my little, bush-whacking camera with awesome zoom). My partner has, not only been my rock through all of this, but she has been taking care of me when I'm down for the count. She has been taking me to my appointments and working from home to keep an eye on me.

Thank you for your continued support,
Cam

The weather is finally looking up here in Michigan. I have been able to get out and take some photos! It looks like I'll be back on my regular uploading schedule of uploading a photo every Tuesday. I'm hoping to take some time to edit and store my mountain of photos I am sitting on to create a backlog for winter when it is too dreary here to to take compelling wildlife photos (at least with my current gear and skill level). I also got back into drawing and I am even dabbling in doing some prototypes of badges I may do commissions for in the future. I think very soon I will post my traditional art (I've been working up to doing it for like a year).

Motor City Furcon was a life changing experience and an amazing first con. I always wondered what some furs meant when they said, "My first con changed my life." Now I get it. I could fully and unapologetically be myself. That part of MI has an amazing LGBTQIA+ community and it was healing to be around so many queer and trans folks. I didn't feel like I had to explain myself once (I feel like my gender/presentation can be confusing sometimes), I met some new friends and did some things I would usually be WAY to shy to do!! It felt like an amazing way to get in touch with who I am really am and love myself.

Thank you to all the fuzzbutts who have stuck around to see my work. I'm excited to see what it will be like to post my traditional art so stay tuned; I'm curious to see what you all will think of it!

CJ

Hey, everyone!

Stuff has still been crazy. Weather has been nasty and cold and I've been so busy with school. I haven't been taking/posting/editing any photos. I had a health emergency, car troubles and I'm trying to get back up on my feet while my partner is doing international travel for work. She's my person and it is hard to be away from her/be without her physical support.

I have a great support system and times are hard. I'm hoping to get out with my camera soon. Sitting down to edit and organize them is a whole other story.

I will be going to my first furcon this coming weekend. As of right now I am planning on taking some photos! It has been a long time since I've gotten to take photos of folks suiting!! Last time I was doing IRL fandom stuff I didn't have any of the cameras I do now; just my phone.

As always, thank you for sticking around to see my work!! I've been thinking about it for a long time but I might post some traditional art sometime in the future as well as some writing. Shooting, editing and posting photos is easy for me but it isn't my only creative love. I enjoy writing and drawing a lot but it is hard for me to do/post. It comes straight from my heart and makes me shy to show to people lol. I've been struggling with writing and drawing for YEARS but I'm feeling an urge to try.

Thank you for reading,
CJ

It has been a crazy few months getting used to school, work, and living in a new town. The US election is coming up and the stress is hard to cope with. I'm ready for holiday break. I'll be off of school and work for the next two weeks. I got a copy of Starfox Adventures (with the full color manual holy %$*@) from my girlfriend for my birthday... I'm going to be doing a lot of playing that and relaxing. I'm hoping to take a few photos while I'm at it. This is a busy time of year for me. Christmas, New Year, and quite a few family and friend birthdays (including my own) happen in the next two weeks. I'm going to be a busy critter! I'm hoping it will be a relaxing kind of busy; seeing friends and family and playing retro games with my favorite person (even though retro means my childhood games these days and that makes me feel old)... I can't wait.

I'm hoping to have a huge batch of photos to upload (hopefully with some snowy ones) in the next few weeks.

We had a friend visiting the last few days who is interested in getting into photography. I felt such pride welling inside of me when we went out on a little excursion. I let him use my camera and a very patient bald eagle let him get dozens of photos. I was spotting with binoculars instead of taking photos which was SO nice.

I just wanted to leave a little memo before I'm inactive for a little while. Thank you to everyone who keeps up with my photos. I love the fandom. It has consistently been a great (and safe) place for me to express myself.

Happy Holidays! Happy Yule and Solstice to all!

CJ

I started going after my associates degree this fall and, HOLY $@&$, who would have thought school would be so overwhelming after taking seven gap years (ROFLMAO)! I also moved in with my partner this last January along with starting a new job (working and school at the same time oof)! I wasn't taking many photos or thinking about the fandom. I'm feeling more inspired since breaks are coming up and I'm only taking two classes next semester. I'm going to try full time school after the Summer. Looking forward to being more active here.

Just wanted to drop a journal saying thank you to all my new watchers who have appeared recently. As always thank you to those who have kept up with me since the beginning. It means so much as an artist to have people follow your work and even regularly comment. I love it when you guys leave encouraging comments on my uploads.

Thank you again!

-Cae

I have been debating for a month or so about posting my traditional art. It is an endeavor photographing/scanning work but I am leaning towards wanting to do it. I think I'll do a few test posts and see the reception I get.

I am going to keep posting photography as well so don't worry about missing out on any of the squirrel pictures I take this year!

I'm feeling really lucky going into this that a lot of my followers have been around since I made my FA last summer. This page is almost a year old! A lot of y'all have been regular favorite-ers and comment-ers on my photography and that means the whole world.

Let me know what you think about this in the comments, friends!

I have been interested in designing tattoos for a while, too. This has been a life long dream. I am considering selling tattoo designs here on FA. If anyone has any tips about selling tattoo designs I'd love the info.

I also went and deleted my Twitter.
I am considering making an Instagram.

Thank you all for the continued support.

CW// Transphobia, dysphoria

Things are so difficult for transgender people in the US right now. In the last two years 500 anti-trans bills have been purposed. Nine states have banned transgender-related medical care for youth.

I wrote an article about my experience navigating being a transgender/bigender person who struggles with dysphoria and finding a way to explain my identity. I gained inspiration through nature and animals. Here is a link to the article on Medium.com. I hope my words can give someone hope and peace.

CW// Dysphoria, menstruation

>>Shedding Velvet<<

Hi, everyone!! I took a long break from Social Media for a while but I'm going to be back at it. I wasn't taking many pictures. A lot has been happening!! I'm moving in with my girlfriend, going to school for Psychology fall of this year and taking on a host of new responsibilities.
Expect posts soon and a little more frequently!

Hi there! I have been working on my very first article. It is about my experience as a trans-bigender woman and menstruating. It would mean the world if you dropped in to read it. I worked on it for about a month. Please let me know what you think!!

"Shedding Velvet"

Commission/Draw an icon for myself

Commission/Draw a user profile image

Commission/Draw a reference sheet for my Doberman 'sona

Commission/Draw a reference sheet for Pocket (Pygmy Gryphon 'sona)

Figure out which website I want to use to post my writing