Hello, all. Here's what's been going on in my life, for those interested. So, my last Journal was 8 months ago. The year is coming to a close, so I feel that I should put my thoughts into words about it. It's been a journey moving, even just a few states away, the drives were long, the tasks were hard, and everything was expensive. Being away from home has been incredibly difficult and financially straining. I had a decent job that was bringing in some money, but it wasn't perfect. Keep in mind that where I live, you don't get paid much; everything balances out. In my home state, I was making considerably more clams for similar work + a little less hours. In this state, I need to work a lot more for the same. It sucked. The past tense means that I don't work there anymore, I got fired. I got fired just as my Boyfriend was ready to move and settle in. Fast forward a bit, he does arrive, we get everything as best set-up as we can. Problem arises: neither of us can find work. I $#!% you not that my Partner exhausted every IT job within like, a 40 mile (64km) radius. After being fired, my Partner and I unable to find work, I enter a rather depressed state. I can't wake up early anymore, I pretty much stopped looking for work, and I didn't take care of myself much. I also get a little sad around the Winter and Holidays. Everything pretty much culminated into a $#!%-show. Nothing was working out for us. We're running out of money. I felt terrible for even having my Partner move here in the first place. We call up some of his family, they live 2 hours away. They said they'll help us, so that's where we're at now. Boyfriend moved already, and he's living with his family again, and working with them. Being alone again has been hard, and well, threw me back into a really terrible state of being. I'm still there, he moved on Christmas. I'm trying to focus on art, surviving, and looking for jobs when the new year comes. I honestly feel very lost. I feel as though I have a lot of potential, but I can't break the barriers in my mind to unlock what I'm really capable of. I've still got big, childish dreams inside me, somewhere.

Anyway, thanks for reading, see you all next year.