I been meaning to make a journal since forever ago, just blurt some thoughts out and such. I have a bad habit of keeping everything internal so good to get stuff out.

First, uh state of the world could be better, between general stupidity and everyone realising the consequences of overbearing social media. Everything feels overly connected at the moment. The somewhat strange metaphor rolling in my head is it feels like the bad guys plan in Megaman Battle Network 5, which was: 1. Connect everyone emotionally/empathic level directly via the internet, and 2: upload a giant evil entity to completely overwhelm peoples emotions and flood them with evil. Yeah that’s kind of where we are at the moment, just on a more stupid level. We have kind of reached that MMBN stupid land of connecting every damn thing to the internet and wondering why everything breaks every 3 seconds.

Secondly, my hyperfixation lately as been playing Marathon, cause holy hell I find it addicting. Now as a rather dedicated Destiny 2 player this game hardly came out of nowhere. Marathon has had an incredibly infamous development history filled with too many controversies to list here. So when I was always interested to play it, but was out of bitter curiosity rather than genuinely thinking it would appeal to me. And well at first I hated it… but something about it kept me coming back, and then something clicked… and yeah I haven’t put it down cause it got me hard. The art, the world, the gameplay is all damn good. So that’s basically where I’ve been for a month. It also felt really good to have a piece of media that got me to feel hella engaged as well, which I haven’t had that in a long time. Now is this game a success? Uh… its a niche game with a niche fanbase that is hyper engaged with it… and cost Sony the GDP of a small nation to produce… so uh, probably not. I don’t think it’s like shutting down tomorrow though, it’s still one of the more successful of Sony’s live-services (which isn’t saying much) so I think it’ll at least hang around for a while due to sunk cost. But for now I’m having fun with it so whatever.

Hmm, what else? Well I’ve been mostly okay, I find myself a bit more distant with friends and family, just wanting to be alone in quiet. Everything feels loud, especially at work, so I think I’ve just preferred solitude where I can find it lately. I do have a bad habit of spending too much on food lately, I really should take a stab at weaning off buying take away all the time.

And finally Glori, pretty bird, and furry stuff, still have lots of ideas and such to do but I find horniness and drive for comms sort of comes in bursts, and I’m not aways as horny these days. I should try and get back into the swing of things. There is at least a lot of peeps I should consider poking and reconnecting with, even just for a poke and chat.

I think that’s all for now. Again just blurting stuff out, no idea who reads these but uh… hope you got something out of it.