Wow, it's been a while since I've been active on here. In a way it's nice. Almost like coming back home, you know? I've been around, lurking, liking. But not really posting the pieces I've had done. Not posting silly journals. I grew distant from the community that I once felt like home in. Some things have happened in my life that have me coming back to my roots again, though. Finding the things I once found happiness in. Unfortunately, it can't all be good, right? other things have come to the surface that I thought were long behind me. Feelings I thought were gone. An ache I thought I was past.

Someone I lost touch with years ago crossed my mind again the other day, and the more I thought about him, the more I realized just how much I've missed this fox. He's without question, the kindest, purest soul I've ever had the privilege to know. It's just so confusing, suddenly realizing that the love you felt for someone didn't ever really go away like you thought. That it was just pushed down, locked away in a box to stop the ache from breaking you. And now that box is open again. I fear I won't ever get the chance to tell him how much he still means to me after all of these years, and how much I miss having him in my life. I've tried to find him again, but with no success. It's like he's just fallen off of the world. So the ache I feel is tinged with worry.

Wherever you are, I hope you're okay. and I hope we find each other again... someday