I wish things had turned out different.
But, after the sudden suspension of my YouTube channel of 15 years.
Days before Christmas. After many appeals and an internal investigation. Someone at YouTube/Google has decided that what I create is sexual and is in violation of their rules.
They have stated that the channel has been permanently terminated, their decision is final and it can not be overturned. I understand that others whom make the same content were lucky in getting their channels back after the same reason for suspension.
However, I was not.

I have lost 15 years of memories.
I do not have back up, especially of the older videos.
These videos featured friends and loved ones who are no longer with us.
These videos showed the joy of performing these skits live at conventions all over the world.
These videos showcased my own creative expression, my skills. Both with ideas, editing and building the costumes themselves.
These videos were documented and accessible memories that are now gone forever.

I've met so many of you who said that they found this fandom through my videos.
Regardless of one's opinion of inflation as a fetish.
My videos in particular. Where not created for sexual purpose. I've seen inflation porn, this is not inflation porn.
They were live action cartoon antics. There to create laughter and entertainment. They were harmless. No different to what you see in cartoons and movies.
I'm not sure if the single person or small group of people who had the final say on my channel simply hates furries, gay people, Australians, Immigrants or what. But, I feel personally attacked and feel this decision was made in bias.
I don't know what I did wrong.

This has truly sent me into quite the depressive spiral.
It has greatly affected my mental health.
I've had a lot on my plate and like many of us the last two years have been taxing on us all.
I do not know what this means for the future. I have lost all interest in creating content. YouTube deleting my channel feels like I've lost a part of my soul and identity.
I do have wonderful support around me. I know I can get past the low point mentally eventually. But, this truly has affected me so deeply that I really don't see myself going any further when it comes to content creation. Both with Oz and as Duke.

I do thank you all for all the wonderful memories. It was a true joy to create those videos over the years.
If anyone has copies of my videos (mainly the older ones). Please feel free to send me a DM. It would mean a lot to me to get them back.
I kindly ask that no one reuploads my content to YouTube. I do not want it there and will report any that are. No one has my permission to upload my content.
I have no interest at this stage uploading or using other video platform. I shouldn't have to.

In the end, I tried. An employee at Google/YouTube said no.
So, that's the end of that.