Hello!!!!

ive been MIA for 3 years. how have you been?

i have not exactly returned. my journey in life has taken me from a porn artist to a mom, and now to a youtuber.

i have just started out, i play games under the handle 'squeak gaming'

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCL.....hZqYBWOaOMEUaQ

if you want to listen to me yammer on while i play games like stardew valley and pokemon xenoverse you can head over there. im still getting things off the ground, and i do streams not edited videos. besides some sketches and a few pusheen paintings, i haven't been into art in a very long time.

as time has passed onward my medical issues have not gotten any better really, but i do have more answers, and i am treating a few things that wasn't been treated before like my anxiety and depression. i have developed arthritis in my spine along with a bulging disk, both are located at the base of my spinal fusion. this makes exercise increasingly hard, and along with medication i have gained a significant amount of weight that i am now trying to lose. along with these issues chronic pain, fatigue and now migraines are added to that list. so i am taking medication for my migraines as well.

i just got daith piercings yesterday in a desperate hope to help said migraines. (there is antidotal evidence that these piercings can cure migraines but no scientific backing)

will i ever come back and create art again?

to be honest it may be unlikely at least not for a few more years or if my medical issues some how get resolved. or if i do it will be slow and not often. i have a much different normal now, between insomnia, kids, streaming, and just keeping up the apartment (ya we finally moved! 2 and a half years ago..... heheh)

so right now i am actually looking to commission someone to do my youtube banner, and probably an icon, the one im using now came from an avatar creator and isn't an original art. im looking for human and my two cats, and a cartoonie style maybe disney-isk. if anyone has someone in mind im all ears. ill be looking through all the people i watch as well. instead of making it myself i would like to pay it forward and commission another artist.

anyways im back as a lurker i guess, for a while. and you are more than welcome to come and join me on my youtube page.