recently i had the idea to try to work out some of my fustrations in life by trying to draw them. and this is where i went to first(skip the following part if your not intrested i wont mind)

these are two furrie representations of lets say.... Eccka(squirel) and Arc(bat) two of my closet friends.
well anyone who reads my journals knows that my friends sometimes ignore me. well this picture is more to represent something they do on a common bases. they declare themselves best friends and yell it out to the world as i stand close by(i was edited out of the pic). its not that im mad... it just weird.. to have my friends tell each other they are best friends over and over. then the follow up of 2 years straight(they hung out for two years about every single day). its just as i said weird, its not like i can be mad..but it just odd. i keep thinking of it in my mind, them saying it to eachother.. and calling me just their friend... it essentially means i like you core... but i like him better.i would choose to hang out with him before you... even though ive known you longer (eecka has known me longer). in the case of arc.. it took him over 2 years to even call me a friend... he used to just call me a buddie and other things like that. (they dont say it, its just a way to take it)

i personally have decided that it might hurt, but they do like eachother better then me and i cant do anything about it. and its best if i dont like this pain to sour my relationship with them.

i know im over thinking this a lot, but as i said this is just a concern i have, and im just curious at how other think about it