Hello lovely people,

There are going to be some changes regarding this account that I'm going to detail here. So some of you might know I've been under some harassment here on the platform regarding my stories. To some people the situation is I'm either writing too much aquaphilia material, not enough, switching between M/M M/F F/F too much, not using old characters (that I have purposely written out on purpose) etc. I have had one individual in particular which I was originally going to name in this journal, but ultimately decided that I'm not gonna fight harassment with harassment on here. I've been an active user on Furaffinity since 2016, I enjoy writing in my free time and so I go out of my way to make sure I contribute to the community that I have been with for a very long time. So let me address some changes:

1. I will not be using this account anymore. All recent works will be switched to  Kai Winters which is my new account. The reason I don't want to use this account anymore, aside from the harassment on it, is that it just isn't me. Some know this and some done, but I'm a transwoman in the process of HRT. When I started OttaDave, I was male in mind and body; I created the account when I wasn't aware of the gender dysphoria making itself known. My first fursona: Dave, the otterdog, is no longer representative of the person I am and is a relic of a past I've long left behind. Any story characters pre Saffira, my current sona will not be present in future works. I know some have asked about Dave and Jack as characters coming back, but I'm just not comfortable digging into that past. Those stories still hold up that I wrote back then, and so I will leave this page up for people to enjoy those tales.

2. My sexual preferences have changed. Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT) has stirred up a slight shift in preference. Going from some who was a purely gay male, to a bi-sexual female because of chemical change is going to change the focus on my stories a bit. So those upset that I don't do pure M/M focus, I'm sorry. A big part of my writing process is that I have to be in a particular mood for a particular fetish, sexual lean towards who characters engage within the context of the story, and overall I have to write as I feel it or the work suffers. A huge part of why I did what I did to write back then is not doing stories I actually liked, but what people wanted. That mindset to only do what others asked me to do rather than writing what I actually wanted to write caused massive burn out. I'm still going to write, but in the context of it all I'm going to write what I wanna write and how I wanna write it. I don't mind constructive criticism, but I'm not an assembly line for aquaphilic needs. The big inspirations that led me to writing such as: iconjeevestheroo:  Lei-Lani  -Rufus- I went back recently and start reading some of their older tales again. I had kind of a reawakening; I stopped enjoying the writing I was currently doing, and I could see where the decline began in my work. So the new account will be a chance to write as I did before. Unbound from a single fetish, and free to explore stories I actually want to tell.

3. I cannot express this enough. When I do a gift story for someone, I do it out of the goodness of my heart. I don't expect money, art, or any sort of payment. While I have had people gift me art in the past for writing for them, I will NEVER ask for payment. I don't get paid to do this and my intention was always to be a hobby writer, nothing more. So when I promise some gift story work, I do so with the intention that I do it on my own time and rule set. I respect people's rules regarding people's characters and ideas, but I will not write things that go against my own principles or be pressured to write faster than I am capable of. I have a life, this is not my job, and I do not get paid for it. So please respect that if I'm working on something for you, that is on my own time and out of my kindness.

4. In terms of aquaphilia, this community has inspired me greatly. The rotten apples of it though.. their actions have made me slowly resent the fetish. I spoke about the assembly line feeling. I'm doing this because this is what my community has wanted. I should have stopped that mindset as soon as it began. I love the fetish still deep in my heart, but I'm sick of writing it. So there will be a break in aquaphilic material. When I will begin writing it again I don't know, but when I do it will be on  Kai Winters

5. Wall of shame. So I have never wanted to point anyone out and I will stick to my principles in this journal and not bother giving them attention. On my  Kai Winters page, there will no be instating a wall of shame for future bouts of harrasment. This might be a bit harsh, but I want people to know I'm not some person to be battered because I'm not filling a quota, or doing something that appeases your own personal need for a particular fetish or character. I respect that sometimes emotions run high, but I will not be walked over because of my love for the community at large.

Final remarks:

Those who have been with me since the beginning, new fans, and those who have got to see my journey thus far: Thank you. From the absolute bottom of my heart, I cannot express how much your love means to me. Every comment, favorite, follow, message, and shout is a point of pride for me. That I can give back to you guys who got me here means everything. I'm sorry that I've had to come off so extreme lately, but the circumstances warranted a minor change. So please, if you want to see the newest stuff from me coming soon go to  Kai Winters I will not be deleting this account as I want people who find enjoyment in my old tales to still be able to enjoy them on the page that they originated. I love you all, and I hope to see you guys on my new page.

Hello beautiful people!

I had noticed my follower counter just hit 101 recently and I couldn't be more grateful for the support you guys consistently show me. I just wanted to type out a proper thank you for always being there and giving my content much love. I do plan on doing a free story raffle sometime soon so keep an eye out for that, but in the meantime am in the kitchen cooking you guys up some outstanding aquatic content for today.

When I was was sick recently you guys flooded to my page to give me the love and support I really needed to get through one of the most difficult periods in my life. Thank you. I cannot express enough words to show how much it all meant to me. I have been on Furaffinity since 2016 and have made some awesome friends and acquaintances. When I began transitioning from male to female these last few years you, all watched me move from Dave to Saffira, the swap of sona's was an interesting adjusting period for some, but I'm so glad you all stuck around with me through this journey. I was so tempted to make a new Furaffinity to reflect my gender changes, but overtime I grew attached to the history of nostalgia on my page.

You guys are just so feckin awesome, and I really really hope you stick around for what's to come.

I love you all very much <3

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Hey everybody,

I know I haven't been writing as much as I should be. I've been trying to be consistent, but even then I know the aquatic content has been inconsistent. I have read your notes and believe I'm trying to pump that sort of content out to the best of my ability. I've been needing to write this journal for a bit. One or two of you know already, but I'm just not in it right now. My circumstances have just been really difficult as of late. Been trying to write more loving, venting pieces, but that stuff is really hardly noticed much. I enjoy writing it though and it's been a good emotional outlet so I'm still going to focus on that content.

I have some stuff going on in my home life at the moment that is taking its toll on me mentally and physically. I'm getting maybe 2 hours of sleep a night if I'm lucky. Mentally I've fallen into such a depression that I'm just consistently feeling as though I'm dragging and barely clinging to any real motivation to the point my college grades are actually suffering, where I used to be a stellar academic. The point is, I'm just at my threshold of stress. I'm falling apart physically and mentally. Shout out to  ThrashMetallix and  Nikolai_Rosnov who have just absolutely been wonderful to me. Even with their support, I think I'm finally just at a point where I need to break from writing for a bit. What was once consistently a relaxing venture has now been a target of my anxiety. No piece feels correct, everything feels absolutely trash upon finishing a story, and on a compulsive level I can't stop trashing more stories than submitting them.

I'm taking an extended break off Furaffinity for a while. I will probably still being faving stuff, responding to notes, but I'm done writing for a little while. Not forever. I just need to get my mental health in order. I've been looking into even possibly checking into a depression clinic or really just finding a shrink at a minimum. I'm tired. I feel like my life is spinning into chaos. I hope you all can understand this break. I so appreciate those who have just really looked into my content lately. Not sure how long this break is gonna be, but I couldn't stay away from this community if I tried, so expect when I recover that I'll be here bringing you guys more of what you love.

I love you all very much. I'll be back when I can.

Hello lovelies,

I just wanted to take a moment out of your day to properly ask for some creative input. I'm been writing like a mad woman recently and putting together story after story. I've really enjoyed the last few stories I've done recently, and I wanted your guy's opinion on a specific matter with my writing. I recently did an aquaphilic piece that was erotic, focused with drowning elements, and I did a more wholesome story about a diving family with drowning/non-snuff elements that people seemed to like as well that focused on the new soft restart to my character's backstory. Now do you guys prefer the major erotic elements or did you guys prefer the wholesome nature based stories? Kinda gauging a reaction as I know both stories did pretty well, but I can't really decide on what to do next. I really enjoyed writing more clean based aquaphilic tailes, but I also don't mind doing stories that erotic in nature. I just kinda wanted to know how you guys feel. I guess I had burnout this last go around with my erotic stories, so kind of wanted to see how you guys took the new story?

I never ever thought I'd have to write this kind of thing, but it needs to be said. For those who have followed me for a long time, you know that I'm very serious about your creative suggestions and feedback. Today I wrote the short piece "Chronicles of a Siren" and received an interesting comment regarding my work that was less than helpful. If you have criticisms for me or you'd like me to touch on a certain topic in my stories, write me or comment on any piece that I've written.

I do not get paid for my work and I do this merely as a hobby, that being said, however I want to give you guys things you are interested in reading. I understand people do not always like certain themes or fetishes, and that is okay. Tell me what you like to see, but don't be like the comment today and act rude in a manner that clouds what you're actually trying to get across to me. I love each and everyone of you who takes a moment out of your day to read my story, and I wouldn't be here if I didn't feel like some of you guys like my stories.

I will not respond to harassment, offensive language, or rude behavior. I'm not a professional writer and so I'm always looking for feedback to improve myself as a hobby writer, but know that when you speak to me like I'm beneath you, then your whole point gets lost. A fetish for one person and not another is absolutely no reason to act disrespectfully.

I'm sorry I had to write this PSA, but I couldn't let go unsaid. Thank you for your continued support and remember: I'm open minded to your suggestions and feedback, but remember to be constructive about it. Telling me my story differs from your tastes and that there is no point to providing actual feedback since I occasionally write drowning snuff is not feedback that I can improve my shortcomings from.

Hello everyone,

Happy, very frozen 2021. I wanted to write a bit of an update on top of taking suggestions for recent stories. First, I notice a steep decline in interests in my stories lately. I was wondering if it was because I shifted a little more away from NSFW, but overall I kinda want to get your opinions of what kinds of things you'd like to see me write about in terms of kinks, scenarios, specific kinds of characters, etc. I want to put a big focus on writing more, given the chance. I know I started my writing as an aquaphilic writer, which I totally intend to keep doing, but the dry spell of ideas to keep it interesting has pushed me away from it as of late. So what specific things do you appreciate in a good aquatic story? Suggestions for themes, species, and anything else you might be interested in seeing will be taken into account. I check my FA daily, so please inbox me. I do also do story requests, but only those not on time constraint. I don't get paid to do story work, but I also try to do request stories when I'm at my best.

Now for the big update. Many of my friends here know that I got engaged in December. After 10 years of being in love with the same person before deciding to settle down, problems began arising that kept appearing in that 10 year time. We have separated back to friends and I don't want to go into specifics about our lives in private, but let's just say love failed in many avenues at the worst possible time in our lives. I won't be writing this week and possibly next, but I am taking your ideas and suggestions down. I'm still very much grieving from the separation and my birthday is on Saturday, so I'm going to get out there and try to find my way again. After the dust has settled, I want to hit my writing like I never have before. I hope you'll be there with me for my journey.

Love you all forever with all my heart.

Doing some Dead by Daylight live at Twitch.tv/raynawolf. Come on and hang out with me!

We did everyone! We made it to 2021. I have a few updates on the horizon that are all quite big!

1. My computer has officially died. 6 years I had my little beastly laptop but after trying to preserve her life span she finally decided to die during a windows 10 update (figures). Anywho, I am going to be getting a computer this month at somepoint. So expect stories again around February ish.

2. I'm transitioning genders. After years and years of dealing with absolute crippling dysphoria, I'm finally in the process of handling gender transitioning. Since about October last year I have been doing my HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy). I have to continue HRT for awhile before I'm allowed to do full gender reassignment surgery, but I'm so excited to finally be able to handle this journey with a very supportive doctor I've known a long time and the loving support of my family, fiance, and friends all around me.

3.I'm officially enaged!  Nikolai_Rosnov an amazing, wonderful, and loving who I have had the pleasure of dating on and off for 10 years finally proposed to me. While no dates are set due to my transition planning are holding us up abit, we are definitely both excited about our future and life together.

Big updates I know, but I figure with the look forward through 2021 that it was time. I love you all and I hope that you will continue to support me on through by reading my stories and providing feedback. Thank you my lovelies <3 here is to 2021!

Hey all, just putting a little notice up that I won't be on for a week. As some of you know I have had bi-polar disorder for a while and today I had experienced a sort of manic episode. Gonna take a get well week to get my mind in order so discord and FA messages will be slow to be replied to. Love you all and I hope to come back feeling much refreshed. Will post a journal when I'm back. TTFN <3

Hello, everyone! I hope everyone has been safe, happy, and healthy during this crazy time. 2020 amirite? I just wanted to give you all an update on everything on my end as this post will include role-playing, story writing, and everything just kinda going on my world so you know I'm still active here.

Roleplaying:

I really want to start roleplaying with people on here. I've been in an odd on and off again relationship, so I'm not looking to date but just kick back and have some fun. Roleplaying helps me create ideas for stories and helps my overall writing process. So if you're into aquaphile, underwater peril, breathplay, etc. Just message me on here and we can arrange it.

Characters:

If you guys give a look to my scrap folder I have updated my character references. I know have a female and male character. The female is my primary at the moment. So go give it a look and tell me what you think. Also shoutout to  Nikolai_Rosnov who gifted it to me way back and I'm just posting it now. Oops.

Page Update:

I've updated my profile page information. I don't know how people do the colors and cool edits on their page so if anyone could help me out with that I would be super grateful.

Future Stories:

Well you know when you get into that slump where you're super horny, but yet still can't come up with things to write? Yeah that's me at the moment. I just completed this semester of college and on summer break so hoping to whip up some hot stories for your viewing pleasures but like I said in the rp section. I'm looking for inspiration so RPs are always a big help.

Activity:

So I was on lurker status since March, I've been viewing art and stories but haven't done much commenting or faving. Ok that changes now. I got a better laptop that doesn't immediately have a seizure when I click the fav button on art so gonna be favoriting and commenting on stuff so if you get a notification spam that's why. I am fully active now so feel free to message if you guy's need anything or just wanna shoot the breeze. I also have discord.

Twitch:

I love to freaking stream but haven't gotten around to it with school, but now that my schedule is opening up I would really love the support. I play whatever I feel like at the time so nothing specific but please please show me your support at Twitch.tv/ottadave . I haven't got a camera but I do use voice and I love to communicate with chat so come join me for a stream whenever I'm on.

But anyways guys thanks for tuning into my update and giving it a look. As always you guys are amazing!
Tata for now my lovelies <3

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Hope to see you all there!

Hey all! Happy 2020 to you guys. I thought it was time I posted an update as I noticed a couple of shouts coming my way along with several worried messages in regards to my whereabouts. I'm still very much alive and here. My page although it may seem dead in the water it is very much still kicking. In 2019 I was in lurker status as I just lost my desire to write. After losing a pet and my nephew I just kinda dealt with my stuff off the internet on top of my college work, dating, etc. So to answer a few things for you guys:

Have I stopped writing completely?

No, just for now.

Will I begin writing again this year?

Yes. I plan on writing again very soon. Got some good ideas brewing.

Is your inbox still active?

Yes please write me if you have ideas or things you would like to see in my stories. A huge reason I have trouble is massive writers block from time to time so if you have ideas please share them so I can write.

Will you do special requests stories?

Depends on what you want. I focus in aquaphilia based material so I try to stick to that format. Please PM if you have any questions or would like a request?

When will requests get done?

I generally attempt a 1 week turn around. If not possible I send a message. Not paid to do this and it's more of a hobby so sometimes personal irl obligations interrupt that writing period, but I always get done what is requested of me.

Once again I appreciate you guys checking up on me. I'm gonna start working again this year on story writings. I have had a year to get my affairs in order and I'm looking to dip my toes back in to the deep depths of aquaphilic fiction. I love all of you and once again please message me if there is anything you like to see in my stories or a personal request story. I love getting input and it helps the writing process. Thank you all for keeping me in your thoughts in 2019 and I hope to provide you with quality work this year.