Don't mind me. I'm just wistfully staring at testosterone. Just been thinking about how it's been 3 years but I still haven't been able to make any changes towards changing my gender. Still haven't even been able to afford to throw out the girl clothes even though I haven't worn them outside of home loungeware. Idk. I think its because my mom forced a haircut on me a week ago and it just kinda makes me wish I would man up and just find the money to go to the doctor and get on T.
I just hate living being treated and seen as a girl. I don't like looking at myself in the mirror. I'd like people to me as a guy rather than whatever I am. I don't pass. I'm too baby faced and round for that but I want. I want my voice to not be so cute.... idk
Just feeling trans and shit these past weeks