I get that. It's mostly for me with my burnout I've been working on these 2 original projects for over a year for both and with one of them it was a show pilot that I kind of just kept being pushed to make it more and more a certain direction and tone by my team that I hated and wasn't what I wanted to do and it eventually just became them completely disregarding my designs and ideas to make their own ideas and shit. And then there was a book that I just kept hating because the more I tried to make it fun and have it be good the more I resented its existence while everyone kept saying 'you gotta finish it this is your big break' with both projects and that this is the way to become professional artist. I just kinda broke down and finally realized I hated doing both and I can't remember the last time I did art for the sake of just making something fun and not for attention. Even with this. I've been in a work mode coma since 2016 and maybe even longer and I'm only now realizing it. But like I don't know how to just want to make things anymore in the same way I don't know what to do with my free time without falling into a depression lump. The phrase I keep landing on is 'you already took it. So just take it already' and I just want to feel like a human again. or at the very least a nice spoon

hey you're good. Self care is personal and weird. I just need to figure out what making art that I want means again along with how do I post 'cringe' without falling into a shame spiral. It's so hard especially because irl life never gives me long enough to settle and have self care