I haven't made a big deal out of it but I got furloughed around 3 weeks ago now and while I've been mostly fine as far as bills this month has come with a shit ton of other stuff. Like a horrible roommate full of nothing but red flags that I pointed out where red flags that stole a bunch of our shit and we had to kick out who ruined my mattress because since last February I haven't had a room or a bed I've been laying on a pile of blankets on the tiled floor in the office because the room needed to be renter ready. Man also almost killed our dog because he wouldn't stop leaving people food out for her to steal and she's elderly and does not need that much salt in her diet. I've been trying to set up commissions or a Halloween ych but I'm not gonna lie depression has been swallowing me up so hard it's not even funny. It also doesn't help that neither my mother or my other roommate respect me enough to NOT HOVER OVER ME as I try to draw shit because my mother doesn't see the big deal in knowing what fetishes their kid likes to draw for....FOR SOME FUCKING REASON.
So I get maybe 5-10 minutes to draw in an hour before someone comes in to spy on me. And, this is also means I haven't even to work on not nsfw shit because I am one of those art people that actually needs basically near silence while I'm working and they do not grasp this...I also had mysterious medical things happen and had to the doctor where the answer was 'we don't know why you're in pain but we'll run expensive tests'. I guess what I'm saying is...I'm floundering and need help but I also don't know what to do and I feel consistently bad that I'm so useless or that I don't have the mental bandwidth to actually network online through discord and stuff before my brain starts collapsing in on itself. Sorry... I'm a mess